幸福到底是怎样的玩意儿？是一种感觉吗？还是一种象征？其实幸福时时刻刻都与我们为伴，只是不知足的我们似乎视而不见。幸福在于每天能够活得自在，能够把周边的事务变得更美好。幸福在于有改变的权利，有掌握生命的动力。
在这段学期里，我更深一层地了解自己，自己的情感模式，性格，人生的另一面。除了课务繁忙，我渐渐体会到了要怎样平衡处理我种种的事务，虽然还不能算有条不紊，但下个学期，我一定要做的更好。
爱 一个人才是真正的幸福，被爱往往不能长久。说到爱，我做了认真的思考，也的了小小的结论。爱是一种使命，是抽象的。它是责任，是一个伟大任务，胜于亲密， 关心，谅解，容忍，和睦，开心，etc. 爱是漏印在双方心中的同一个梦想，奥妙无比。亲密，关心，谅解，容忍，和睦，开心，etc 只是桥梁，虽不是爱本身，但也扮演着举足轻重的角色.
爱也是一种挑战，越艰辛，越有意义（当然前提是双方能克服）。它是个长久的拉锯战，你不能说停，也难以说放弃（除非你无心）。它的果实是甜的，但绝非让你非常满足到底。丝丝的满足感，提供你微妙的力量。你不能要求太多，因为多反而不一定是好。唯有用心感应，不言而喻 :)
This indeed is one of my rare posts in chinese. It took me some time to churn it out. My chinese has indeed gone rusty. Anw, holidays are getting on real fast, and christmas is coming, signaling the impending commencement of the next sem! But before that there will be results. Keeping my fingers crossed :)
December 12, 2008
November 03, 2008
The Birthday Theory
Technically speaking, birthdays are annual events, rare as they seem, but genuine as they are. Especially when hallmarks of growth are concerned, e.g. 21st etc (u get my meaning), people do really get into the joyous mood as if another festive season just arrived. Fantabulous (ok no such word) parties are thrown, impactful events to remember. Supposed to last a lifetime. But for me, which of course being a november baby, mine had to come, though excruciatingly slow people would say, but nevertheless being younger for a few months certainly made me feel more elated and grant me that humorous edge in life whenever i hang out with my peers.
Not to bore you all more with my suspicious intention of getting you familiar with some big or bombastic theory. Its just called Happy Birthday in English. Yes! 21st. What can it mean? it means you would have lived 21 years, many months, many many days, many many many hours, many many many many minutes, and lastly (or else you will stop reading i think..:) many many many many many seconds... Well, they say 21 is a pretty nice age, you are an adult, physically.. take note.. physically.. nothing to imply mental maturity, but yes, if u are not mature yet, keyword is ACT like one. And so the celebration begun.. it all started when oct came to an end.. people were focused so much on mid term examinations, and then this weird's guy bday just popped out of a sudden. Kinda interrupted the mugging mood.. But then.. as they say, birthday right? festive season right? yes so of course got some kinda mood..
Some chronological events here.. it all started like this.. sat afternoon, went singing with wl,eq and ct. Cut a sinful chocolate cake and finished by all of us there.. sun morning went to jalan kayu for prata (erm that was breakfast, but also kinda celebrating my bday..) as u can see, since sun was my bday, everything that has transpired on that day is deemed as "in celebration of the day".. Then of course i had my tuition after my breakfast, and had a couple of bday greetings that came along.. Then went back to sch, then went to sing k again, then came back hall with the last few hours spent wonderfully. Well its a matter of the mind, and i can recall how painful the last few minutes of my bday.. it was a countdown, except that it was a countdown to an end. So i guess it made no meaning.
But thats how it went in a nutshell, with some presents along the way. i must say its simple, yet very meaningful. I am satisfied, i am happy. there are somethings although, which i must admit, that are not very smooth along the way, some moments of regret and disappointment, but i appreciate that it came as part of this experience.
Life should not always be happy. There must be tension, and realisation. This period of my life has shown me yet again the people who really care for you, made an effort to stand by and reaffirm their emotional attachment to you. No man is an island, the invisible structures that hold you up as an individual surviving in this great world is revealing itself. I like that feeling. The feeling that u know you are not alone. The feeling that you know that there is something worth striving for.
I know some people like to list down those that wished them happy bday. But i dont like to based on once again a wise man's words (em, in case u are thinking who is it, its my room mate, eugene) - those who know you wont need this anyway, and those who are not close to you dont care anyway.
Oh ya, i almost forget about my title. its called the birthday theory :) it states that everyday is either your birthday or your belated birthday. Every moment you live should be, will be, and must be a moment of pure joy and fulfilling experience. To the mathematical person, 1 day of bday, 364 days of belated birthdays. So its never wrong to wish someone happy birthday, just add the belated word when necessary.
As if this theory is not nonsensical enough, let me say in utter solemnness that this is never a joke. The ability to live fulfillingly is not a want, but a desperate need in all humans.
My greatest birthday wish is to live a fulfilling life as such. To adhere in accordance to this seemingly idealistic birthday theory is not to kid myself, its to strive towards it.
Support my theory! Haha :)
Not to bore you all more with my suspicious intention of getting you familiar with some big or bombastic theory. Its just called Happy Birthday in English. Yes! 21st. What can it mean? it means you would have lived 21 years, many months, many many days, many many many hours, many many many many minutes, and lastly (or else you will stop reading i think..:) many many many many many seconds... Well, they say 21 is a pretty nice age, you are an adult, physically.. take note.. physically.. nothing to imply mental maturity, but yes, if u are not mature yet, keyword is ACT like one. And so the celebration begun.. it all started when oct came to an end.. people were focused so much on mid term examinations, and then this weird's guy bday just popped out of a sudden. Kinda interrupted the mugging mood.. But then.. as they say, birthday right? festive season right? yes so of course got some kinda mood..
Some chronological events here.. it all started like this.. sat afternoon, went singing with wl,eq and ct. Cut a sinful chocolate cake and finished by all of us there.. sun morning went to jalan kayu for prata (erm that was breakfast, but also kinda celebrating my bday..) as u can see, since sun was my bday, everything that has transpired on that day is deemed as "in celebration of the day".. Then of course i had my tuition after my breakfast, and had a couple of bday greetings that came along.. Then went back to sch, then went to sing k again, then came back hall with the last few hours spent wonderfully. Well its a matter of the mind, and i can recall how painful the last few minutes of my bday.. it was a countdown, except that it was a countdown to an end. So i guess it made no meaning.
But thats how it went in a nutshell, with some presents along the way. i must say its simple, yet very meaningful. I am satisfied, i am happy. there are somethings although, which i must admit, that are not very smooth along the way, some moments of regret and disappointment, but i appreciate that it came as part of this experience.
Life should not always be happy. There must be tension, and realisation. This period of my life has shown me yet again the people who really care for you, made an effort to stand by and reaffirm their emotional attachment to you. No man is an island, the invisible structures that hold you up as an individual surviving in this great world is revealing itself. I like that feeling. The feeling that u know you are not alone. The feeling that you know that there is something worth striving for.
I know some people like to list down those that wished them happy bday. But i dont like to based on once again a wise man's words (em, in case u are thinking who is it, its my room mate, eugene) - those who know you wont need this anyway, and those who are not close to you dont care anyway.
Oh ya, i almost forget about my title. its called the birthday theory :) it states that everyday is either your birthday or your belated birthday. Every moment you live should be, will be, and must be a moment of pure joy and fulfilling experience. To the mathematical person, 1 day of bday, 364 days of belated birthdays. So its never wrong to wish someone happy birthday, just add the belated word when necessary.
As if this theory is not nonsensical enough, let me say in utter solemnness that this is never a joke. The ability to live fulfillingly is not a want, but a desperate need in all humans.
My greatest birthday wish is to live a fulfilling life as such. To adhere in accordance to this seemingly idealistic birthday theory is not to kid myself, its to strive towards it.
Support my theory! Haha :)
October 19, 2008
Transience...
No one can ever be happy all the time. The mood of mine has been plunging into a rollercoaster ride. More often, it has been that of melancholic, depressing, and for a few rare instances, gratification and contentment. There are some problems in me that havent been resolved. It bogs up and down everytime, thankfully it isnt like simple harmonic motion with a constant periodicity. It is not that i have not tried to rein in the situation and seek a solution. The fact that the resolution is always tested against the menacing claws of time quenches my willpower and dampens whatever rationality there is in me that upheld the resolution in the first place. I feel so powerless. Yet in certain instances, or rather occasional ones, i manage to put up a fierce battle against the irrationality and triumph in sheer self-effacement. Well, not to discredit it, but the turmoil soon comes back. The vicious cycle emerges from its only dormant active state. And here i go again... transience.. what a word.. so succinct in its epitomisation of my plight..
Maybe the problem lies in the resolution.. probably its a lousy resolution..but any o how, it was already made to the best of my ability at that point in time. I probably need to refine it. Afterall, life is about progress, not perfection.. as i always put it across to myself. A barber cant cut his own hair, but at least he tries to. Until my next entry, i shall update you with this ferocious battle i face every day, every moment. It is okay if you do not understand what i say, because it is meant to be personal.
Just to draw a parallel to Hsienberg Uncertainty Principle, you cannot simultaneously locate the problem and the magnitude of the problem at the same time. Well the above is just to amaze myself and adopt a lighter outlook of the problem.
Meanwhile, with the exams roaring ahead.. it is almost inevitable that the countdown begins.. And the mugging instincts unleashed.
Till my next post, permanence shall be striked out of my vocab.
Maybe the problem lies in the resolution.. probably its a lousy resolution..but any o how, it was already made to the best of my ability at that point in time. I probably need to refine it. Afterall, life is about progress, not perfection.. as i always put it across to myself. A barber cant cut his own hair, but at least he tries to. Until my next entry, i shall update you with this ferocious battle i face every day, every moment. It is okay if you do not understand what i say, because it is meant to be personal.
Just to draw a parallel to Hsienberg Uncertainty Principle, you cannot simultaneously locate the problem and the magnitude of the problem at the same time. Well the above is just to amaze myself and adopt a lighter outlook of the problem.
Meanwhile, with the exams roaring ahead.. it is almost inevitable that the countdown begins.. And the mugging instincts unleashed.
Till my next post, permanence shall be striked out of my vocab.
September 24, 2008
The Battle Of M&M
Its not the one that says melt in your mouth, not in your hands. The 2 Ms stand for macro and micro. I'm describing life. Life consists of macro and micro forms. It can be the mindset, it can be an act, it can span across various intentions. one common dilemma people face would be whether to focus on macro or micro. Some say we should always maintain the macro outlook while working on the micro. Some say that there are times to focus on the macro, and times to focus on the micro, it cannot be simultaneously well attended to. what's the right way actually then? is there even a right model which exists that is emboldened in successful personalities or characters? What is the right balance then if both macro and micro are needed concurrently?
Some of these questions have popped up recently. There are so many things that i've been doing. I've been feeling that i'm just scantily carrying out my daily routines, without any particular meaning or purposeful attention towards anything. I on the path to a jack of several trades. Has uni life changed my lifestyle? Or is it just a brand new stage of my life where there are changes?
A quote i saw on msn about RECESS week. it stands for Really Exciting Cos Everyone's So Stressed. I love the freedom to do what i want to in this much sought after break, including going back to hall to do some peaceful studying and surfing the net. 1 sem comes and go at lightning speed. Maybe its cos i just restarted school, so everything's so fresh! :)
Some of these questions have popped up recently. There are so many things that i've been doing. I've been feeling that i'm just scantily carrying out my daily routines, without any particular meaning or purposeful attention towards anything. I on the path to a jack of several trades. Has uni life changed my lifestyle? Or is it just a brand new stage of my life where there are changes?
A quote i saw on msn about RECESS week. it stands for Really Exciting Cos Everyone's So Stressed. I love the freedom to do what i want to in this much sought after break, including going back to hall to do some peaceful studying and surfing the net. 1 sem comes and go at lightning speed. Maybe its cos i just restarted school, so everything's so fresh! :)
August 30, 2008
Finally, the topic is back to ME!
School's been a month for me. The thrill is back again. I like the challenge of academics, though it makes me very stressed and surfaces my perfectionism. It brings back memories of intense studying, and highly stimulating moments. Well, the only difference in lifestyle between now and the good old jc and sec sch days is the greater autonomy given to us. No one cares if u dont wanna study or attend lectures. Sometimes you dont even feel socially out of place when u miss lessons. totally free. and there u also have the liberacy to join whatever clubs or committees you like, with the limiting factor being time. You can do almost as much as u want to achieve. I love staying in hostel, dont ask me why. Maybe it feels abit lonely u think, but there are times i feel secure and comfortable camping there. Well, honestly i dont have any much more stuff to ramble on. Feel people see it anyway.. well i kinda like the phrase on eugene's blog, that whoever who knows me would not need to read what i write about myself, and those that dont will not care anyway. There are things held in private which i would not want to share here, so this might not be the real me you are perceiving.
Life's been great so far, made new friends, adapted to the academic lifestyle, back into the self-contained academic warzone. The battle has just begun, i'm stretched on many ends, including trading.
Life's been great so far, made new friends, adapted to the academic lifestyle, back into the self-contained academic warzone. The battle has just begun, i'm stretched on many ends, including trading.
August 09, 2008
Shooting Blanks, Scoring Zeros
Radical Honesty,by Dr. Brad Blanton, posted a rude awakening to my life. It depicts an absolute truth of not witholding the darkest fears and secrets of your life experiences to anyone, and hence able to live in the present, and experience being. This is indeed unpalatable on first hearing, but yet embeds a powerful logic behind human functioning. Humans escape our darkest fears, we repress our emotions, live beneath a sheath constructed for ourselves so that we feel secure. Our minds loathe uncertainty, and lusts for predictability. In some sense, we over controlled our minds. We created a shield or coat so that we can live in the socially correct or self perceived acceptable way without feeling any discomfort or tension. Dr Blad Blanton, with his slightly indignant tone of writing at times when portraying the rationale to being honest, rightfully vindicates the unconventional nature of telling the truth. the truth hurts, but to live freely, you must have the courage to experience the pain first, or even more pain, before you grow.
It is a tough decision to make, and we often lack the spiritual and emotional muscle to take the first step. It is a daunting task to tear down our own beliefs and adopt a new model of behaviour. We often dont, and its hard to sustain even if we started, it takes full determination and cooperation from others to make it work. The pathetic situation about us living behind a self constructed mask is just like shooting blanks - you get the sound effect but you don't experience the real effect. It functions just so to obey the convoluted instinct inside you. Some of us are too resistant to change, because change carries a price. Some of us are satisfied with living like this, cause change is unimaginable. But yet honesty in life is so vital. Not just honesty, but as Dr Blad said, Radical Honesty. Honesty that is unconventional, raw, and unadulterated. Words that mean truth and the absolute feelings, uncovered, naive, but genuine. Only when an outlet for expression is available that we are able grow out of it, with our creative instincts and sharp mental awareness. We learn from the here and now, be it the moment of glory or the devastating reality.
Things got to start somewhere. It needs to germinate, and continue to grow. Well this book hit quite well with my understanding of psychotherapy. It makes an intriguing read for anyone!
Click here for its website :)
It is a tough decision to make, and we often lack the spiritual and emotional muscle to take the first step. It is a daunting task to tear down our own beliefs and adopt a new model of behaviour. We often dont, and its hard to sustain even if we started, it takes full determination and cooperation from others to make it work. The pathetic situation about us living behind a self constructed mask is just like shooting blanks - you get the sound effect but you don't experience the real effect. It functions just so to obey the convoluted instinct inside you. Some of us are too resistant to change, because change carries a price. Some of us are satisfied with living like this, cause change is unimaginable. But yet honesty in life is so vital. Not just honesty, but as Dr Blad said, Radical Honesty. Honesty that is unconventional, raw, and unadulterated. Words that mean truth and the absolute feelings, uncovered, naive, but genuine. Only when an outlet for expression is available that we are able grow out of it, with our creative instincts and sharp mental awareness. We learn from the here and now, be it the moment of glory or the devastating reality.
Things got to start somewhere. It needs to germinate, and continue to grow. Well this book hit quite well with my understanding of psychotherapy. It makes an intriguing read for anyone!
Click here for its website :)
July 19, 2008
TAR - Tension, Action, Reflection
Don't get me wrong, i'm not preaching smoking, nor am i lecturing biology. I am just immersed in my own world of thinking once again. And so the journey begins..
TAR, in short, or rather in my perception, represents a cyclic process or routine that makes up the micro and macro parts of our life. Our life consists of many TAR processes repeatedly experienced.. Let me cite you an example. You feel the urge to go for this chocolate buffet due to a long craving for chocolate. You decide to halt the hesitation and ignoring your subconscious which keeps remind you of the sin that you are putting yourself through (chocolates!!), you go for it..So after the buffet, you feel good/bad depending on how u initially perceived ur actions.. maybe guilt cos u can't resist ur urge, maybe satisfaction because u indulged urself exquisitely.Then you concluded after evaluation that it is okay to pamper yourself once in a while and not feel bad. Maybe even setting up a routine so that this becomes a regular perk to motivate you towards greater goals in life. This eg delineates an entire process of tension, action and reflection. Now lets go in depth into the 3 elements.
Tension - A feeling/sensation, positive or negative, that causes you to literally feel charged up. This could result from a push, a pull in any combinations from any number of sides. Ok this sound pretty much like forces in physics. But there you go,translating it in life, this is it. Tension doesn't recognise direction, it comes in any magnitude, from anyone, even including yourself. It includes encouragement, discouragement, motivation, despondence etc. Any thing that constitutes an attractive/repulsive force which "charges" us up for fight/flight would qualify. But take note, feeling good after obtaining good results for e.g. might be a one time off sensation and doesnt contribute to further developments later on do not come under tension.. these are just passing events.. they are spectators, decorations.
Action - This is the real thing. Something visible, tangible. A manifestation of our innate charged up tendencies. How we feel is reflected in what we do. What we achieve is what we conceive. Why we do it is how we feel it should be done. Thats it. Simple. Yet the jewel lies in this process. The takeaways in life are encapsulated, more often disguised, buried, and enmeshed in this bizzare, perplexing, and sometimes outwardly threatening event. The timeframe for our execution of actions can be long, short, it doesnt matter. The fact is our learning point commences here. Cliches like life is a journey, not a destination, what we do is not important as how we do, it is the process that matters etc, takes its meaning through it. Different people gain different insights and feelings through their actions. Some serve as big revelations, discoveries, some serve to validate their own viewpoints. The baseline is: we all learn something. What everyone learn is unique to him/herself.
Reflection - Most people never do this enough. Reflection is not easy. It involves thinking about what you've learnt about in your actions, and evaluate it for the better growth of yourself. That is to say, there must be a conclusion and an end to what you found out. It must be specific. For e.g, this has helped me in... i would not want to do this again.. ok these are just VERY SUPERFICIAL examples. Keyword here is think. Think hard and think deep. Align it to your purpose of the event. Re-orientate it to you current situation in life. Reposition yourself after your actions, re-evaluate your current position, and plan the next path. Make some decisions. Discard what is useless to you, be it thoughts, ideas, anything tangible included. reflection is the bridge to your next mission in life. you need the link, or else you are just mundane. you are stagnating, going through motion.
So herein i've tried as best as possible to explain these 3 elements of TAR. Every element is equally important and has its reason for existence. However i would like to stress that every individual might not experience or i should say derive the full benefits of every stage. Some might not reflect enough, some do not place importance on their learning experiences, some simply ward off tension in their lives because of fear. To each he moulds his own way of life. We can experience more cycles than many others in that short period of time. It differs. Important thing is that we move, we progress, and we are not afraid to face it.
TAR, in short, or rather in my perception, represents a cyclic process or routine that makes up the micro and macro parts of our life. Our life consists of many TAR processes repeatedly experienced.. Let me cite you an example. You feel the urge to go for this chocolate buffet due to a long craving for chocolate. You decide to halt the hesitation and ignoring your subconscious which keeps remind you of the sin that you are putting yourself through (chocolates!!), you go for it..So after the buffet, you feel good/bad depending on how u initially perceived ur actions.. maybe guilt cos u can't resist ur urge, maybe satisfaction because u indulged urself exquisitely.Then you concluded after evaluation that it is okay to pamper yourself once in a while and not feel bad. Maybe even setting up a routine so that this becomes a regular perk to motivate you towards greater goals in life. This eg delineates an entire process of tension, action and reflection. Now lets go in depth into the 3 elements.
Tension - A feeling/sensation, positive or negative, that causes you to literally feel charged up. This could result from a push, a pull in any combinations from any number of sides. Ok this sound pretty much like forces in physics. But there you go,translating it in life, this is it. Tension doesn't recognise direction, it comes in any magnitude, from anyone, even including yourself. It includes encouragement, discouragement, motivation, despondence etc. Any thing that constitutes an attractive/repulsive force which "charges" us up for fight/flight would qualify. But take note, feeling good after obtaining good results for e.g. might be a one time off sensation and doesnt contribute to further developments later on do not come under tension.. these are just passing events.. they are spectators, decorations.
Action - This is the real thing. Something visible, tangible. A manifestation of our innate charged up tendencies. How we feel is reflected in what we do. What we achieve is what we conceive. Why we do it is how we feel it should be done. Thats it. Simple. Yet the jewel lies in this process. The takeaways in life are encapsulated, more often disguised, buried, and enmeshed in this bizzare, perplexing, and sometimes outwardly threatening event. The timeframe for our execution of actions can be long, short, it doesnt matter. The fact is our learning point commences here. Cliches like life is a journey, not a destination, what we do is not important as how we do, it is the process that matters etc, takes its meaning through it. Different people gain different insights and feelings through their actions. Some serve as big revelations, discoveries, some serve to validate their own viewpoints. The baseline is: we all learn something. What everyone learn is unique to him/herself.
Reflection - Most people never do this enough. Reflection is not easy. It involves thinking about what you've learnt about in your actions, and evaluate it for the better growth of yourself. That is to say, there must be a conclusion and an end to what you found out. It must be specific. For e.g, this has helped me in... i would not want to do this again.. ok these are just VERY SUPERFICIAL examples. Keyword here is think. Think hard and think deep. Align it to your purpose of the event. Re-orientate it to you current situation in life. Reposition yourself after your actions, re-evaluate your current position, and plan the next path. Make some decisions. Discard what is useless to you, be it thoughts, ideas, anything tangible included. reflection is the bridge to your next mission in life. you need the link, or else you are just mundane. you are stagnating, going through motion.
So herein i've tried as best as possible to explain these 3 elements of TAR. Every element is equally important and has its reason for existence. However i would like to stress that every individual might not experience or i should say derive the full benefits of every stage. Some might not reflect enough, some do not place importance on their learning experiences, some simply ward off tension in their lives because of fear. To each he moulds his own way of life. We can experience more cycles than many others in that short period of time. It differs. Important thing is that we move, we progress, and we are not afraid to face it.
June 26, 2008
I hope
2.5 years passed in the blink of an eye, be it the green times, or the current disorientated transition period after my ORD. Whatever it is, times of studying seems to be back again.. this time, it would be a different me undergoing the tenacity and rigour of the academics test. My life has been stretched in the past 2.5 years i would say, and i had experienced something distinctly different from the past 18 years of my pre-university life. One major change is the awareness that i must be independent, that i am no longer in the days of relishing in my own comfort zone. I know in this process this would be a tough period, where sacrifices need to be dished. In my various endeavours so far, while i have found meaning in whatever i do, i have not fully found my real direction and intrinsic meaning in life. While i allowed myself to experience the trials and tribulations, the intricate details of existence, i have not galvanised myself to act upon them, to form convictions and strengths within to chart my own path. I am rather thankful to many of my dear friends whom without them, i wont be able to taste the niceties of progressing through life as a team, rather as an individual, to do the little things together, enjoying our insignificant yet joyous and inflated moments of pride.
Uni beckons next, with a whole new world to me. Not the people, not the academics, not anything. Its a challenge to me because my routine is going to be changed. My expectations would need to be altered. My act of balancing have to be refined for the better. My own psyche has to adapt well. The nitty gritty of it all seems to expands in front of me.
I hope, and i hope. No. I will, and i must.
Till then, if you are still reading this, give me a nudge. My fortnightly posts are turning into a monthly one if u observe. But well, does it depend on the readership?
Please, this question is not rhetoric, do answer! :P
Yes/No, you decide.
I like quotes about life, don't know why.
Life is a journey, not a destination
Life's about progress, not perfection
Life is about balance, not extremes
Life is about laughter, not the joke
Life is a game, not the results
Life is about the whys, not the whats and hows
My last self created inspiration about life...
Life is about living in fearless eternity, creating a unique prototype where you base your self-esteem and source of significance, seeking life progresses from within, achievements from the internal, through our interactions with the external reality. We are who we are, as much as we allow ourselves innately.
Uni beckons next, with a whole new world to me. Not the people, not the academics, not anything. Its a challenge to me because my routine is going to be changed. My expectations would need to be altered. My act of balancing have to be refined for the better. My own psyche has to adapt well. The nitty gritty of it all seems to expands in front of me.
I hope, and i hope. No. I will, and i must.
Till then, if you are still reading this, give me a nudge. My fortnightly posts are turning into a monthly one if u observe. But well, does it depend on the readership?
Please, this question is not rhetoric, do answer! :P
Yes/No, you decide.
I like quotes about life, don't know why.
Life is a journey, not a destination
Life's about progress, not perfection
Life is about balance, not extremes
Life is about laughter, not the joke
Life is a game, not the results
Life is about the whys, not the whats and hows
My last self created inspiration about life...
Life is about living in fearless eternity, creating a unique prototype where you base your self-esteem and source of significance, seeking life progresses from within, achievements from the internal, through our interactions with the external reality. We are who we are, as much as we allow ourselves innately.
June 03, 2008
Blank Slate
Time to blog again ppl, and now.. the topic is on...(drum rolls).. blank slate!!
Haha how boring and anti climax. Dont wanna give ppl the impression that i'm such a boring and philosophical person, but just dun know how man.. these are my thoughts, the thoughts of a humble, under-appreciated (kidding la, i'm not looking out for appreciation anyways) teenager STILL on crossroads, but saw the dim traffic lights. Things are getting abit less cloudy for me, but worries still unabating of course. My life has been revolutionising, from being plagued by my own emotions to being aware of it. I need to move on to appreciation! Ok before the real anti-climax arrives, i'd better fast foward my ramblings and pass on the mike to the inner voice in me. Today's discussion would be just 2 words - blank slate
Nature brought on each and everyone of us as a blank slate, an untainted prototype of human, readily accepting any form of influence and impact. The mind, the body, everything, ironically, knows nothing about existence. Our environment starts to mould our physical appearance, imbue character, infuse thinking, and trigger behaviour. We start to become alive. We start to respond and participate in the world arena. Most importantly, we form the circle of influence towards others, including those very senior in this world, and also not excluding new blank slates. Every word we say, every action, might not be recorded, but it certainly possessed an impact on the world. Every thought produces a wave, every action bestows progress. Every minuscle input by us changes our circumstance in someway, albeit often unrealised.
You would hear people saying that a blank slate will no longer remain one. When time marches on, the slate is coloured, tinted, tainted, adored, or maybe disfigured. Now this begs a very perplex question: Can we undo these changes, and return to the pure, demure state? Can we go back, make a choice, relive our lives, choose the influence, behave differently, and redecorate the picture of our slate again? A historian will vehemently deny this. But being a humanist like me, i say we can. We can choose to live all over once again. Not time machine or stuff like that. I mean the kind of live we envision how we should have lived in the past, applying it now. We can erase away all the markings, but we must first be aware of their existence, and who painted it on us. We must decipher the influence that has been brought upon us by the environment. We need to understand our makings. How did it happen?
Ok before you see stars, let me assure you that i'm still writing english. There is a reason for our behaviour, our actions. It is our beliefs and thinking. There is a reason for our beliefs and thinking, and that is our predisposition. And our predisposition has been the result of our interactions with the environment around us. Anything beneath would just be a blank slate.
Sun Tzi said that knowing yourself and others suffice to win all battles. Knowing yourself would logically imply that you win half the battle. In fact, people do not achieve 100 percent self-realisation. Many parts of us remain unexplored. But life moves on. We constantly react to the world in ways being governed by our innate, more often unaware of it as clear as we ought to. Its time to discover why we feel in this way, why we think like this, and why we behave in such a characteristic manner. It's time to be a third party in your life. Observe the being in front of you, yourself. Treat it like the computer in front of you. Understand it thoroughly. Understand the programming language. For example, you feel angry easily because you belief you are easily irritable. So what causes that irritability? Any past event, experience, trauma that probably cultivated that trait? Any influence that shaped your low threshold for tolerance? Give yourself some time to seek a solution. Find the underlying connection. Solve the puzzle. Seek the missing link.
With this mystery solved, you will be better able to live a well-informed life. You will see yourself in another way. You will better accept your behaviour, and can proceed on to make changes you desire. This is the power that i am referring, the power to reinvent ourself, to recreate our blank slate, and erase it again. To be able to master our destiny is to understand human tendencies, and to be the author of our stories.
Life is a drawing board, you choose the picture, the colour combination and you paint it yourself. There will always exist a chance for you to erase and redraw, but you must first know the reason why you drew it in the first place. Or else no matter how you repaint, you will always be unhappy.
Haha how boring and anti climax. Dont wanna give ppl the impression that i'm such a boring and philosophical person, but just dun know how man.. these are my thoughts, the thoughts of a humble, under-appreciated (kidding la, i'm not looking out for appreciation anyways) teenager STILL on crossroads, but saw the dim traffic lights. Things are getting abit less cloudy for me, but worries still unabating of course. My life has been revolutionising, from being plagued by my own emotions to being aware of it. I need to move on to appreciation! Ok before the real anti-climax arrives, i'd better fast foward my ramblings and pass on the mike to the inner voice in me. Today's discussion would be just 2 words - blank slate
Nature brought on each and everyone of us as a blank slate, an untainted prototype of human, readily accepting any form of influence and impact. The mind, the body, everything, ironically, knows nothing about existence. Our environment starts to mould our physical appearance, imbue character, infuse thinking, and trigger behaviour. We start to become alive. We start to respond and participate in the world arena. Most importantly, we form the circle of influence towards others, including those very senior in this world, and also not excluding new blank slates. Every word we say, every action, might not be recorded, but it certainly possessed an impact on the world. Every thought produces a wave, every action bestows progress. Every minuscle input by us changes our circumstance in someway, albeit often unrealised.
You would hear people saying that a blank slate will no longer remain one. When time marches on, the slate is coloured, tinted, tainted, adored, or maybe disfigured. Now this begs a very perplex question: Can we undo these changes, and return to the pure, demure state? Can we go back, make a choice, relive our lives, choose the influence, behave differently, and redecorate the picture of our slate again? A historian will vehemently deny this. But being a humanist like me, i say we can. We can choose to live all over once again. Not time machine or stuff like that. I mean the kind of live we envision how we should have lived in the past, applying it now. We can erase away all the markings, but we must first be aware of their existence, and who painted it on us. We must decipher the influence that has been brought upon us by the environment. We need to understand our makings. How did it happen?
Ok before you see stars, let me assure you that i'm still writing english. There is a reason for our behaviour, our actions. It is our beliefs and thinking. There is a reason for our beliefs and thinking, and that is our predisposition. And our predisposition has been the result of our interactions with the environment around us. Anything beneath would just be a blank slate.
Sun Tzi said that knowing yourself and others suffice to win all battles. Knowing yourself would logically imply that you win half the battle. In fact, people do not achieve 100 percent self-realisation. Many parts of us remain unexplored. But life moves on. We constantly react to the world in ways being governed by our innate, more often unaware of it as clear as we ought to. Its time to discover why we feel in this way, why we think like this, and why we behave in such a characteristic manner. It's time to be a third party in your life. Observe the being in front of you, yourself. Treat it like the computer in front of you. Understand it thoroughly. Understand the programming language. For example, you feel angry easily because you belief you are easily irritable. So what causes that irritability? Any past event, experience, trauma that probably cultivated that trait? Any influence that shaped your low threshold for tolerance? Give yourself some time to seek a solution. Find the underlying connection. Solve the puzzle. Seek the missing link.
With this mystery solved, you will be better able to live a well-informed life. You will see yourself in another way. You will better accept your behaviour, and can proceed on to make changes you desire. This is the power that i am referring, the power to reinvent ourself, to recreate our blank slate, and erase it again. To be able to master our destiny is to understand human tendencies, and to be the author of our stories.
Life is a drawing board, you choose the picture, the colour combination and you paint it yourself. There will always exist a chance for you to erase and redraw, but you must first know the reason why you drew it in the first place. Or else no matter how you repaint, you will always be unhappy.
May 19, 2008
Action and Motivation - Chicken & Egg Qn?
How often do you get out of bed and lament that you don't feel like waking up and start work today? Casting the tiredness aside, when was the time u said to urself on a fresh day that you don't feel like doing anything today? Or maybe you put up an excuse of laziness, lethargy, listless, which of course points out to the intrinsic lack of motivation in you. That being said, i can vow that the day ahead would not be fulfilling. This group of people need to be triggered or activated.
Then there is another realm where people do not have a choice, or rather are obligated to do what they have to do daily, for eg going to work, schooling, army, etc. Yet when you speak to some of them, they seem to exude vibrancy and vitality. Their routine seems to disturb them the least. (ok, i'm referring to most, not all) They seem to find motivation in what they are doing, and their focus is on what comes on through their doings, not what comes before their doings.
Comparing the latter to the former, this begs the question of whether action or motivation should come first. We know that we need both elements for achievement of our goals, but the good question is which is the first prerequisite? To believe that we will derive satisfaction and inspiration through our doings, or to seek for a driving force for our actions?
In my humble opinion, i believe this depends on the personality and philosophy of each individual. I am however inclined to understand it in this other manner: maybe the more emotional people leverage on motivation, while the more concrete/realistic people might identify with the aims and perks and kickstart actions, seeking motivations along the way (leveraging on actions). I'm not pointing to any weakness of character here, different people are predisposed differently. Both groups of people possess the potential to achieve big. Emotional-inclined individuals who leverage on motivation harness on the immeasurable innate driving force that seeks to materialise our dreams through subsequently established actions, while concrete/realistic based individuals channel their energies onto goal-oriented actions and derive motivation alongside their doings, sustaining their momentum till their dream is materialised.
Which type are you? Share with me if you think my above hypothesis is true :D
Another quote for today:
We think so because all other people think so;
Or because afterall, we do think so;
Or because we were told so, and think we must think so;
Or because we once thought so, and think we still think so;
Or because having thought so, we think we will still think so.
Henry Sidgwick (1838-1900)
Then there is another realm where people do not have a choice, or rather are obligated to do what they have to do daily, for eg going to work, schooling, army, etc. Yet when you speak to some of them, they seem to exude vibrancy and vitality. Their routine seems to disturb them the least. (ok, i'm referring to most, not all) They seem to find motivation in what they are doing, and their focus is on what comes on through their doings, not what comes before their doings.
Comparing the latter to the former, this begs the question of whether action or motivation should come first. We know that we need both elements for achievement of our goals, but the good question is which is the first prerequisite? To believe that we will derive satisfaction and inspiration through our doings, or to seek for a driving force for our actions?
In my humble opinion, i believe this depends on the personality and philosophy of each individual. I am however inclined to understand it in this other manner: maybe the more emotional people leverage on motivation, while the more concrete/realistic people might identify with the aims and perks and kickstart actions, seeking motivations along the way (leveraging on actions). I'm not pointing to any weakness of character here, different people are predisposed differently. Both groups of people possess the potential to achieve big. Emotional-inclined individuals who leverage on motivation harness on the immeasurable innate driving force that seeks to materialise our dreams through subsequently established actions, while concrete/realistic based individuals channel their energies onto goal-oriented actions and derive motivation alongside their doings, sustaining their momentum till their dream is materialised.
Which type are you? Share with me if you think my above hypothesis is true :D
Another quote for today:
We think so because all other people think so;
Or because afterall, we do think so;
Or because we were told so, and think we must think so;
Or because we once thought so, and think we still think so;
Or because having thought so, we think we will still think so.
Henry Sidgwick (1838-1900)
May 01, 2008
Burning Obssession
Has anyone ever experienced that and care to share with me how it feels like? Is it something which grips the soul and awfully devastates it when our desires are not met, or is it an unwavering determination/positive aura that guards our dreams against the devilish distractions?
I am one who dont really exhibit/or maybe feel extreme emotions so far, and maybe sometimes i equate it to the lack of drive in anything i do, or want to do. Maybe i dont even feel very strongly at all for anything. Sound like an austere guy? I don't really know. I enjoy the simple pleasures in life, the everyday jokes, warm moments. But when it comes to a goal or target, sometimes i dont seem to have one, albeit it might have been a very weak one. When i achieve something, people might take my humbleness as a positive trait, but to me there is nothing to be proud in the first place? I dont downplay my achievements, but i felt that the achievement wasn't very much desired as a burning obssession. That is probably why satisfaction for me dont last, and i believe more in intrinsic happiness and fulfillment. I am an introspective person who likes to dwell in my innate, sometimes to the dismay of myself. I know this sounds like a disorder, but maybe just overly reflective. "Weakness is an overfunctioned strength, yea?"
You might not have understood what i have written so far, lest you can feel my pulse. But its ok, its never my intention to let people understand it. So if u do, please tell me, and i should say you probably understand a bit of me! :) There's more to it, and i believe if you know me personally, i always look calm and collected, but the world in me can be a turmoil.
Today is labour day, where we all take a break to think about what we have been doing all this while. This interesting topic of burning obssession suddenly struck me as a recurrent issue. Do share with me if u experienced it before. Let me understand its nature.
Lastly, i would like to share a quote by Albert Camus, a French existentialist author and philosopher, which i find it personally meaningful.
I am one who dont really exhibit/or maybe feel extreme emotions so far, and maybe sometimes i equate it to the lack of drive in anything i do, or want to do. Maybe i dont even feel very strongly at all for anything. Sound like an austere guy? I don't really know. I enjoy the simple pleasures in life, the everyday jokes, warm moments. But when it comes to a goal or target, sometimes i dont seem to have one, albeit it might have been a very weak one. When i achieve something, people might take my humbleness as a positive trait, but to me there is nothing to be proud in the first place? I dont downplay my achievements, but i felt that the achievement wasn't very much desired as a burning obssession. That is probably why satisfaction for me dont last, and i believe more in intrinsic happiness and fulfillment. I am an introspective person who likes to dwell in my innate, sometimes to the dismay of myself. I know this sounds like a disorder, but maybe just overly reflective. "Weakness is an overfunctioned strength, yea?"
You might not have understood what i have written so far, lest you can feel my pulse. But its ok, its never my intention to let people understand it. So if u do, please tell me, and i should say you probably understand a bit of me! :) There's more to it, and i believe if you know me personally, i always look calm and collected, but the world in me can be a turmoil.
Today is labour day, where we all take a break to think about what we have been doing all this while. This interesting topic of burning obssession suddenly struck me as a recurrent issue. Do share with me if u experienced it before. Let me understand its nature.
Lastly, i would like to share a quote by Albert Camus, a French existentialist author and philosopher, which i find it personally meaningful.
Don't walk behind me, for i may not lead.
Don't walk in front of me, for i may not follow
Just walk beside me and be my friend
April 11, 2008
Emotion Potential (EP)
Men are driven by emotions and innate beliefs. When we feel strongly about a particular earthly object, person or matter, we develop a gradual/strong desire to possess it. Our mind paints a picture of the lovely yearning, filling it with imaginably exotic details and amazingly flawless satisfaction upon acquiring it. The idea is constantly reinforced by going through repeated reinvigoration of itself, feeding our soul the necessary "energies" to inch forward in our pursuits. More often than not, an enemy by the name of distraction comes along with a energy sapping device, draining away the gusto and extinguishes the flame of our barely lited dreams. They attack us when we are the least determined, ambivalent in our convictions, and most vulnerable to external influences. When this enemy comes near, its aura cannot be missed. Just like the stock market, our emotional indicators will fluctuate, oscillate unpredictably, maybe just like the fibonacci sequence. We go on an irrational ride, and steadily losing grip of ourselves. Engulfed in emotions, the usual composed rational disposition is overwhelmed. Flickering flame, befuddled individual. So where do people turn for help?
Many places. Sometimes almost everywhere except themselves. They recognise their own weaknesses, but they do not know the it is their very self that provides the strongest form of support, the most turgid cushion to lift us from the quagmire, and the most reliable companion to see us through rough times. I do not deny "no man is an island", and neither do I downplay any external help. When we seek help, we are just finding another avenue to affirm the positive thoughts or the so called resolution that we have inside ourselves all the time. That inner strength just wasn't sufficiently recognised and utilised. So do some inner searching, for in times of real emotional downs, more often if we are patient with ourselves and standby our emotions, ackowledging them as normal, and then adopt a third party view of oneself, we might very well discover the antidote to our long-troubling malady. It takes courage, it takes understanding, thats why external help just serves to facilitate our transition to become a more courageous and self-accepting person.
Having faith in something seems to work for some people in achieving their goals, while for others it is to no avail. Does that mean the faith is less sincere or less intense? What governs the law of faith in its galvanisation of our actions? Is believing a catalyst to achieving? Yes many can testify, and copious evidences lend credence. But in all cases, constructive action has been existent in the process of realising the aim. So does faith leads to positive action and focused effort? Where is the missing link?
I am no one to offer an explanation, but my humble guess points out to the extent that these aims/goals occupy our mind and thoughts. Not only how long, but how deep, how wide, and how we always consciously refresh its image to enliven it. Yes, how real. Being intense or sincere isnt the same as how real! Humans connect to images and visions differently. We respond to signals in varying degrees of affection, and the magnitude of these affective temperaments is exclusive to one only. If i am happy, and i describe to you with the best vocabulary i have, best phrase or whatsoever, you would still be not able to know the intrinsic value of it. Not because we cannot assign a value to emotions, but because we do not know the Emotion Potential (EP) of what we are feeling now.
Emotions are actually stored energies. Just like ATP (adenosine triphosphates), they have the potential to be harnessed to do work (actions). The potency of these stored energies in us would accurately depict our desire, faith or belief in any aim, goal, ambition, or any desirable object/matter. In my opinion, potency is the measure of tendency/capacity for action. So the emotion potential beholds the key to our sustained motivation, execution and achievement of our desires. They arent like machines which lift our arms and legs to do work, neither do they provide us with instructions, manuals or what to do next. There aint any free meal on earth. But they provide the substance, the most fundamental fuel in our lives. They governs an individuals behaviour towards procuring objects of their liking. They determine how one would respond to external challenges in the proces, the journey.
Abstract? first i mentioned about humans having different affections towards external events, then introduced emotion potential, and linked it to one's performance towards achieving what we set out for ourselves. I also said about dreams being real, not just realistic and prevalent. Ok, i'm not the first one to advocate this, but most of us fail to put in effort in making what we want real and an within distance. Much more can be said about emotion potential (EP), a relatively unfamiliar concept which just came to me in the midst of this writing. I will try to share more when i discover more insights!
Thank you for your patience, my dear readers :)
Disclaimer: I am a novice in this, so do guide and critisize whenever u deem necessary. However, if you are disturbed in this highly erroneous(in your opinion) post, let me pacify you by referring you to my title: Benign Manifestations. Understand these two words well. That will quell any turbulence within you.
Many places. Sometimes almost everywhere except themselves. They recognise their own weaknesses, but they do not know the it is their very self that provides the strongest form of support, the most turgid cushion to lift us from the quagmire, and the most reliable companion to see us through rough times. I do not deny "no man is an island", and neither do I downplay any external help. When we seek help, we are just finding another avenue to affirm the positive thoughts or the so called resolution that we have inside ourselves all the time. That inner strength just wasn't sufficiently recognised and utilised. So do some inner searching, for in times of real emotional downs, more often if we are patient with ourselves and standby our emotions, ackowledging them as normal, and then adopt a third party view of oneself, we might very well discover the antidote to our long-troubling malady. It takes courage, it takes understanding, thats why external help just serves to facilitate our transition to become a more courageous and self-accepting person.
Having faith in something seems to work for some people in achieving their goals, while for others it is to no avail. Does that mean the faith is less sincere or less intense? What governs the law of faith in its galvanisation of our actions? Is believing a catalyst to achieving? Yes many can testify, and copious evidences lend credence. But in all cases, constructive action has been existent in the process of realising the aim. So does faith leads to positive action and focused effort? Where is the missing link?
I am no one to offer an explanation, but my humble guess points out to the extent that these aims/goals occupy our mind and thoughts. Not only how long, but how deep, how wide, and how we always consciously refresh its image to enliven it. Yes, how real. Being intense or sincere isnt the same as how real! Humans connect to images and visions differently. We respond to signals in varying degrees of affection, and the magnitude of these affective temperaments is exclusive to one only. If i am happy, and i describe to you with the best vocabulary i have, best phrase or whatsoever, you would still be not able to know the intrinsic value of it. Not because we cannot assign a value to emotions, but because we do not know the Emotion Potential (EP) of what we are feeling now.
Emotions are actually stored energies. Just like ATP (adenosine triphosphates), they have the potential to be harnessed to do work (actions). The potency of these stored energies in us would accurately depict our desire, faith or belief in any aim, goal, ambition, or any desirable object/matter. In my opinion, potency is the measure of tendency/capacity for action. So the emotion potential beholds the key to our sustained motivation, execution and achievement of our desires. They arent like machines which lift our arms and legs to do work, neither do they provide us with instructions, manuals or what to do next. There aint any free meal on earth. But they provide the substance, the most fundamental fuel in our lives. They governs an individuals behaviour towards procuring objects of their liking. They determine how one would respond to external challenges in the proces, the journey.
Abstract? first i mentioned about humans having different affections towards external events, then introduced emotion potential, and linked it to one's performance towards achieving what we set out for ourselves. I also said about dreams being real, not just realistic and prevalent. Ok, i'm not the first one to advocate this, but most of us fail to put in effort in making what we want real and an within distance. Much more can be said about emotion potential (EP), a relatively unfamiliar concept which just came to me in the midst of this writing. I will try to share more when i discover more insights!
Thank you for your patience, my dear readers :)
Disclaimer: I am a novice in this, so do guide and critisize whenever u deem necessary. However, if you are disturbed in this highly erroneous(in your opinion) post, let me pacify you by referring you to my title: Benign Manifestations. Understand these two words well. That will quell any turbulence within you.
March 24, 2008
HK-GZ-Macau Recreational Trip (19th - 23rd March 2008)
Yep the title speaks for itself. I went overseas over the long weekend (taking 1 day leave on thurs). I went HK-GZ approximately 1.5 years ago, this time the difference if u notice is in the word "Recreational". Want to know what it was the previous time? There u go, check my previous entry: A drifting mind
Ok first let me provide you the backdrop to this trip. It was a rather hastily planned trip. I should say only planned 10 days in advance. I wasn't feeling very ecstatic in particular, but am slightly excited about the prospect of taking a break from work. No, work ain't dull, but yes the feeling of going overseas certainly overwhelmed that. So, we set off..
Then we arrived (that's obvious)..
Now as usual, this is the itenary that i always take pleasure in outlining after my trip. So be patient and try to use visual imagery haha :P
Well, some facts first: I went with my parents and my uncle's family. In total 6 of us. There we were brought around by my dad's friend QL.
HK-GZ-Macau Recreational Trip (19th - 23rd March 2008)
19-Mar-08
1645: Arrived at Changi Airport
1830: Flight CX 716
2210: Touched down HK International Airport
2345: Reached hotel (白云大厦）
0000: Went for supper
0145: Lights off
20-Mar-08
0830: Reveille
0915: Breakfast at 澳洲牛奶公司
1015: Walked down to 中港城 to purchase tickets to Macau
1045: Went to Lifestyles office
1130: A bit of futile shopping
1215: Hurried lunch at KFC
1230 - 1330: Boarded First Ferry to Macau
1430: Cleared customs (long queue!)
1500: Reached Venetian (威尼斯人) - Casino lor...
1500 - 1815: Casino Charity...[its called grow the GDP campaign]
1815 - 1855: Took bus back to ferry terminal
1930 - 2035: Ferry to HK
2035 - 2215: Walked back towards hotel, dinner (seafood) along temple street
2215 - 2315: Shopped in the vicinity (better than the morning)
2330: Went back hotel
0030: Lights Off
21-Mar-08
0815: Reveille
0915 :Met QL for breakfast (porridge) [less sumptuous than the supper on day 1]
0945 - 1015: Took MTR from Jordon to Admiralty to meet client (business visit for my parents)
1045 - 1200: Sat MTR back to Jordon, shopped for around 0.5 hr before meeting for lunch
1200 - 1400: Lunch at BP [not the petrol kiosk, i forgot the name lah]
1400 - 1530: Uncle's family went to disneyland, we continued chatting with QL and his family.
1530 - 1600: Took a walk to Tsim Sha Tsui by QL's son (a very gd host!) [parents went to shop]
1600 - 1630: Went to QL's house [to borrow his camera cos my battery was flat]
1630 - 1720: Took minibus then MTR to Central, then another bus to Pok Fu Lam park
1720 - 1800: Hiked up to the Peak - around 2.5km [nothing spectacular!]
1800 - 1915: Bought Green Tea Latte at Starbucks and continued another ~3km trail around
perimeter of the Peak
1915 - 1945: Took minibus to Central MTR, then to Mongkok
1945 - 2005: Had dinner at a restaurant [oops, i forgot its name too]
2005 - 2130: Went to shop at 西洋菜街 [not a typo, it is a kind of vegetable!]
2200: Back to hotel
2330: Lights Off
22-Mar-08
0730: Reveille, packed luggage, cabbed to Hung Hom railway station
0805: Arrived at station, met QL, had breakfast at an eatery at second storey
0900 - 0945: Departed for Lo Wu
0945 - 1015: Checked out of Lo Wu (HK), crossed China customs to Shenzhen
1015 - 1048: Bought train tix to GZ.
1048 - 1205: Train journey
1205 - 1300: Took MTR from 广州东站 to 岗顶, checked in 大华酒店 (The Majestic)
1300 - 1415: Lunch at a nearby chinese restaurant [quite nice, specialty dish was 太子鸡]
1415 - 1500: Went back hotel to take umbrella [drizzling!]
1500- 1545: Took MTR from 岗顶 to 公园前. Walked to 北京路.
1545 - 1830: Shopped! [light rain, more walking than shopping though]
1830 - 1915: Dinner at 真功夫 [its has many franchises]
1915 - 2000: Took MTR from 公园前 back to hotel.
2000 - 2245: Stayed in hotel room, played cards with 7 yrs old cousin! Dad went to
meet friends together with QL
0015: Lights Off
23-Mar-08
0830: Reveille
0910: Packed our luggage and
0930 - 1030: Ate light snacks at KFC (again) [there's you tiao leh!], also did some last minute
shopping, returned to hotel
1100 - 1115: Checked out 大华酒店, sat MTR from 岗顶 to 广州东站
1130 - 1245: Had lunch at a chinese restaurant (again! haha)
1245 - 1330: Waited for departure from GZ to Shenzhen
1330 - 1430: Train journey
1430 - 1520: Cleared customs at Shenzhen (GZ) and proceed to Lo Wu (HK)
1520 - 1615: Took MTR from Lo Wu to East Tsim Sha Tsui, changed line to Jordon
1630 - 1730: Last minute devouring at 澳洲牛奶公司 and its adjacent Wanton mee shop
1730 - 1800: Some last minute shopping of dry rations
1800 - 1830: A22 bus journey from Jordon to HK International Airport
2000: Checked in on board CX 715.
2115: CX 715 took off (flight delayed!) [cited technical difficulties]
0045: Landed in SG
0145: Home Sweet Home =)
I remembered the last time i wrote about the nostalgia and unreluctant feeling to return back to sg. This time it was rather different. Though not exactly looking foward back to sg, my composure was back to normalcy even when i was in HK, it was as if i were a PRC or something. I felt pretty comfortable and natural. Maybe because i took for granted the ease of traveling, with someone bringing us around and making us feel secure and confident. For this i give my hearty appreciation to QL for meticulous planning and amiable, accomodating personality. Though there were a couple of delicacies and some parts of the travel that were the same as that 1.5 years ago, i nevertheless relish every moment of it. So now i shall elaborate on some of the segments of my trip:
Casino Charity - The reason i connote the word charity is unambiguously clear. The casino earns in the long run, no doubts about it, u know i know everyone knows. But u go, he goes, everyone goes. For what? They think short term! Leveraging on the thought that they are mentally strong to make an exit when they are about to make losses, or affirming themselves that they are prepared to give away a portion of their money. In both cases, human emotions are often stirred up into fluctuative threshold levels which prompt irrational, hesitative or even vengeful feelings. Humans start to talk to themselves, consoling themselves that its ok, and some even harness the innate capability which persuades us to get even with the casino. And all hell might break lose. Trying to act cool ends up breeding pent up emotions. Lacking mental discipline proves to be the root of all evil? Or should we abstain from gambling if our hearts are weak?
I didnt really lost alot of money, in fact i won abit, just that in total, we all lost a small sum of money. The loss didnt matter as much as the lesson i took back. If u want to play in casino, learn to enjoy the process, and treat money as an instrument of creating happiness and satisfaction. The money has to be disassociated from its intrinsic value it has to us, in other words we should TOTALLY feel that this could be lost without us raising an eyebrow. Just like if one goes disneyland or go shopping, we would inevitably spend some money. Going into a casino also entails some cost, and we could treat our losses as the entrance fee! Go in and prolong your enjoyment. When u win, splurge it on food or clothes later! When u lose, it doesnt affect u at all. Triumphing a casino battle warrants both a purpose and our psychology. We should have a appropriate entry and exit purpose (happiness). We should never ever let our emotions get strayed into materialistic realms. Mindset!
The Peak - Hiking up the trail to the peak was a great leisure and enjoyable activity that gave a different outlook to the entire trip. Firstly, this bore significant meaning to the "recreational" vs "rehabilitative" contrast. This time round, instead of healing, i do the opposite to challenge myself. Very rewarding and psychologically satisfying! I really look forward to another outdoor challenge in HK :)
Ok, thats all for now. I'm VVTi. Not the engine, it means Very Very Tired.
Ok first let me provide you the backdrop to this trip. It was a rather hastily planned trip. I should say only planned 10 days in advance. I wasn't feeling very ecstatic in particular, but am slightly excited about the prospect of taking a break from work. No, work ain't dull, but yes the feeling of going overseas certainly overwhelmed that. So, we set off..
Then we arrived (that's obvious)..
Now as usual, this is the itenary that i always take pleasure in outlining after my trip. So be patient and try to use visual imagery haha :P
Well, some facts first: I went with my parents and my uncle's family. In total 6 of us. There we were brought around by my dad's friend QL.
HK-GZ-Macau Recreational Trip (19th - 23rd March 2008)
19-Mar-08
1645: Arrived at Changi Airport
1830: Flight CX 716
2210: Touched down HK International Airport
2345: Reached hotel (白云大厦）
0000: Went for supper
0145: Lights off
20-Mar-08
0830: Reveille
0915: Breakfast at 澳洲牛奶公司
1015: Walked down to 中港城 to purchase tickets to Macau
1045: Went to Lifestyles office
1130: A bit of futile shopping
1215: Hurried lunch at KFC
1230 - 1330: Boarded First Ferry to Macau
1430: Cleared customs (long queue!)
1500: Reached Venetian (威尼斯人) - Casino lor...
1500 - 1815: Casino Charity...[its called grow the GDP campaign]
1815 - 1855: Took bus back to ferry terminal
1930 - 2035: Ferry to HK
2035 - 2215: Walked back towards hotel, dinner (seafood) along temple street
2215 - 2315: Shopped in the vicinity (better than the morning)
2330: Went back hotel
0030: Lights Off
21-Mar-08
0815: Reveille
0915 :Met QL for breakfast (porridge) [less sumptuous than the supper on day 1]
0945 - 1015: Took MTR from Jordon to Admiralty to meet client (business visit for my parents)
1045 - 1200: Sat MTR back to Jordon, shopped for around 0.5 hr before meeting for lunch
1200 - 1400: Lunch at BP [not the petrol kiosk, i forgot the name lah]
1400 - 1530: Uncle's family went to disneyland, we continued chatting with QL and his family.
1530 - 1600: Took a walk to Tsim Sha Tsui by QL's son (a very gd host!) [parents went to shop]
1600 - 1630: Went to QL's house [to borrow his camera cos my battery was flat]
1630 - 1720: Took minibus then MTR to Central, then another bus to Pok Fu Lam park
1720 - 1800: Hiked up to the Peak - around 2.5km [nothing spectacular!]
1800 - 1915: Bought Green Tea Latte at Starbucks and continued another ~3km trail around
perimeter of the Peak
1915 - 1945: Took minibus to Central MTR, then to Mongkok
1945 - 2005: Had dinner at a restaurant [oops, i forgot its name too]
2005 - 2130: Went to shop at 西洋菜街 [not a typo, it is a kind of vegetable!]
2200: Back to hotel
2330: Lights Off
22-Mar-08
0730: Reveille, packed luggage, cabbed to Hung Hom railway station
0805: Arrived at station, met QL, had breakfast at an eatery at second storey
0900 - 0945: Departed for Lo Wu
0945 - 1015: Checked out of Lo Wu (HK), crossed China customs to Shenzhen
1015 - 1048: Bought train tix to GZ.
1048 - 1205: Train journey
1205 - 1300: Took MTR from 广州东站 to 岗顶, checked in 大华酒店 (The Majestic)
1300 - 1415: Lunch at a nearby chinese restaurant [quite nice, specialty dish was 太子鸡]
1415 - 1500: Went back hotel to take umbrella [drizzling!]
1500- 1545: Took MTR from 岗顶 to 公园前. Walked to 北京路.
1545 - 1830: Shopped! [light rain, more walking than shopping though]
1830 - 1915: Dinner at 真功夫 [its has many franchises]
1915 - 2000: Took MTR from 公园前 back to hotel.
2000 - 2245: Stayed in hotel room, played cards with 7 yrs old cousin! Dad went to
meet friends together with QL
0015: Lights Off
23-Mar-08
0830: Reveille
0910: Packed our luggage and
0930 - 1030: Ate light snacks at KFC (again) [there's you tiao leh!], also did some last minute
shopping, returned to hotel
1100 - 1115: Checked out 大华酒店, sat MTR from 岗顶 to 广州东站
1130 - 1245: Had lunch at a chinese restaurant (again! haha)
1245 - 1330: Waited for departure from GZ to Shenzhen
1330 - 1430: Train journey
1430 - 1520: Cleared customs at Shenzhen (GZ) and proceed to Lo Wu (HK)
1520 - 1615: Took MTR from Lo Wu to East Tsim Sha Tsui, changed line to Jordon
1630 - 1730: Last minute devouring at 澳洲牛奶公司 and its adjacent Wanton mee shop
1730 - 1800: Some last minute shopping of dry rations
1800 - 1830: A22 bus journey from Jordon to HK International Airport
2000: Checked in on board CX 715.
2115: CX 715 took off (flight delayed!) [cited technical difficulties]
0045: Landed in SG
0145: Home Sweet Home =)
I remembered the last time i wrote about the nostalgia and unreluctant feeling to return back to sg. This time it was rather different. Though not exactly looking foward back to sg, my composure was back to normalcy even when i was in HK, it was as if i were a PRC or something. I felt pretty comfortable and natural. Maybe because i took for granted the ease of traveling, with someone bringing us around and making us feel secure and confident. For this i give my hearty appreciation to QL for meticulous planning and amiable, accomodating personality. Though there were a couple of delicacies and some parts of the travel that were the same as that 1.5 years ago, i nevertheless relish every moment of it. So now i shall elaborate on some of the segments of my trip:
Casino Charity - The reason i connote the word charity is unambiguously clear. The casino earns in the long run, no doubts about it, u know i know everyone knows. But u go, he goes, everyone goes. For what? They think short term! Leveraging on the thought that they are mentally strong to make an exit when they are about to make losses, or affirming themselves that they are prepared to give away a portion of their money. In both cases, human emotions are often stirred up into fluctuative threshold levels which prompt irrational, hesitative or even vengeful feelings. Humans start to talk to themselves, consoling themselves that its ok, and some even harness the innate capability which persuades us to get even with the casino. And all hell might break lose. Trying to act cool ends up breeding pent up emotions. Lacking mental discipline proves to be the root of all evil? Or should we abstain from gambling if our hearts are weak?
I didnt really lost alot of money, in fact i won abit, just that in total, we all lost a small sum of money. The loss didnt matter as much as the lesson i took back. If u want to play in casino, learn to enjoy the process, and treat money as an instrument of creating happiness and satisfaction. The money has to be disassociated from its intrinsic value it has to us, in other words we should TOTALLY feel that this could be lost without us raising an eyebrow. Just like if one goes disneyland or go shopping, we would inevitably spend some money. Going into a casino also entails some cost, and we could treat our losses as the entrance fee! Go in and prolong your enjoyment. When u win, splurge it on food or clothes later! When u lose, it doesnt affect u at all. Triumphing a casino battle warrants both a purpose and our psychology. We should have a appropriate entry and exit purpose (happiness). We should never ever let our emotions get strayed into materialistic realms. Mindset!
The Peak - Hiking up the trail to the peak was a great leisure and enjoyable activity that gave a different outlook to the entire trip. Firstly, this bore significant meaning to the "recreational" vs "rehabilitative" contrast. This time round, instead of healing, i do the opposite to challenge myself. Very rewarding and psychologically satisfying! I really look forward to another outdoor challenge in HK :)
Ok, thats all for now. I'm VVTi. Not the engine, it means Very Very Tired.
February 29, 2008
Negativity
When our math teacher taught us that (-)(-) gives us a (+), i had never doubted its accuracy. But when this applies to life, the above statement is a large hoax. I'd like to interprete the 2 (-)s in this manner. The first (-) implies the unpleasant, distasteful experience that befall on us during our everyday lives. The second (-) connotes our individual responses towards the predicament. It does not take rocket science to explain a negative perception of any misfortune would never turn out to be a positive experience. So in life, lets refine the equation:
(-) x (-) = (-)
I'll let u do the other combinations yourself. But you get the point.
I've been trying to strike some positive, optimistic outlook in everything i do, my experiences, and my various attitudes towards the world around me. Sometimes the human mind wonders so uncontrollably that u would almost says it flirts around with the unwanted. Sometimes it really bothers me. Maturity. Am i or am i not?
Comparison leads to a dead end in itself. Competition is however essential for improvement. In competition there is inevitably comparison. Can a balance be sought? I dunno if blogging helps to unleash the sentiments pent up in me, cos i'm restraining it. Well, maybe i should stop adding more negatives behind the string of negatives.
Today there was a lesson on cyberbullying in school. Being a RT there, i was just wondering that if the above mentioned could add to the negative vibes of my readers, and hence contribute to some sort of cyber harrassment maybe?
This is getting really off tangent. I promise i will stop now.
(-) x (-) = (-)
I'll let u do the other combinations yourself. But you get the point.
I've been trying to strike some positive, optimistic outlook in everything i do, my experiences, and my various attitudes towards the world around me. Sometimes the human mind wonders so uncontrollably that u would almost says it flirts around with the unwanted. Sometimes it really bothers me. Maturity. Am i or am i not?
Comparison leads to a dead end in itself. Competition is however essential for improvement. In competition there is inevitably comparison. Can a balance be sought? I dunno if blogging helps to unleash the sentiments pent up in me, cos i'm restraining it. Well, maybe i should stop adding more negatives behind the string of negatives.
Today there was a lesson on cyberbullying in school. Being a RT there, i was just wondering that if the above mentioned could add to the negative vibes of my readers, and hence contribute to some sort of cyber harrassment maybe?
This is getting really off tangent. I promise i will stop now.
February 06, 2008
答案？
A pretty long time before i last blogged. Now its CNY in the blink of an eye. Reminiscing the last two CNY i had, in 2006 it was the week before field camp, in 2007 i was still under the grip of NS duties. Now i am rather free, or u would say unbounded by any obligations to anyone. My life is entirely in my own hands. In my quest to fulfil certain goals at this stage, i've embarked on operation top secret, and of course some RT as well. But i must say that both have not yielded significant success so far. There are many challenges as well as avenues for expressions, but what i feel i sorely lack is the initiative, courage and forthcoming attitude to impose myself. I'm not trying to pick out faults in me, but just viewing it as probably an overfunctioned strength as what i pointed out in earlier posts. We all need to improve, and that is something which needs some finetuning. Sometimes i just feel that i'm engulfed by an avalanche of thoughts that are dichotomous, like a raging debate enacting in me almost unceasingly, obscuring my clear thinking, but most fatal of all, delaying response time and stunting spontaneity. No one is perfect, everyone behaves differently, and certainly we all have the capability to mould our character and predisposition through subsequent learning and conditionings. I think the most important gift of life that a person cannot loses is his self-esteem. It provides the basis for self-recognition, acceptance and towards a positive perception of our environment. Being the building block of our emotions, any dent or scratch is largely felt. Scars and wounds heal ever so slowly, leaving immeasurable chronic afflictions on our well-being. To let go is one thing, to forget is another. Sometimes its just like a birthmark, which cannot be erased. So move on? Yes, find other meanings in life. Just like piecing a jigsaw puzzle. Find another piece, focus on other details, and recreate ourselves. Redefine our existence.
One question which i always ask myself, in a somewhat critical way: Will you respond to something which yields no echo? Answer calls where there is no caller (or maybe just very faint replies probably) at the other end?
This question can be intepreted in many ways. To some, in the most direct, literal and no-brainer way, it is an obvious no. Come on, it makes sense to put down the phone when u said hello for the umpteen time and no sound is heard. It is preposterous to continue talking, or behaving like an enthusiastic individual to a seemingly "inanimate" party unless u are a lunatic. That's it. But if u dwell deeper into the depths of my question, it might give u a headache. Life is at crossroads. All the time. Just like what is captured on the header of my blog. Every move we take each step has a significance, and contributes directly or indirectly, to the world before us, and determine to an extent, be it infinitesimal or colossal, to the prospects and possibilities of our future. Ok, let it not sound so bombastic and hard to comprehend. In short, many say live in the present. Cherish the present. Seize the moment. Ok, whatever. Back to the question. When u cant imagine the outcome, or rather i should say if u are uncertain about something, will u advance in that direction based on a falsified imaginative prospect which u drafted in your mind (a dream people might say). Not saying that it is always a false hope, but humans are secure people, we desire for appreciation, certainty and affirmability.
Our thoughts play tricks on us. They can reward us, and can punish us. They can torture us. They can manipulate us. They can deceive us. Because we allowed it to. I have to admit we are all victims of our thoughts, especially when it comes to the negative effects that arise from it. In life we need a grip. Not just any ordinary grip, but this grip is intangible, and the source of this grip is the degree of our core acceptance. What can affect us, and what will not. What we choose to believe and what we choose not to. Ideas are everywhere, but what we choose to believe in is real. It's influence is overwhelming, into the nooks and crannies of our thoughts, especially evident in those reflexive, involuntary thoughts. Scary, arent they?
Ok i shall not damp the festive mood by posting such a philosophical entry. As much as i have problems, everyone has their problems. Lets find the other jigsaw pieces of our lives, lets play it a step at a time. Eventually, the puzzle will be formed. Life's greatest challenge is not the end product of the puzzle itself, but how we choose to piece the puzzle together. In the process lies everlasting joy and fulfilment. Its up to us.
Over and above, i would like to wish all a happy CNY!
One question which i always ask myself, in a somewhat critical way: Will you respond to something which yields no echo? Answer calls where there is no caller (or maybe just very faint replies probably) at the other end?
This question can be intepreted in many ways. To some, in the most direct, literal and no-brainer way, it is an obvious no. Come on, it makes sense to put down the phone when u said hello for the umpteen time and no sound is heard. It is preposterous to continue talking, or behaving like an enthusiastic individual to a seemingly "inanimate" party unless u are a lunatic. That's it. But if u dwell deeper into the depths of my question, it might give u a headache. Life is at crossroads. All the time. Just like what is captured on the header of my blog. Every move we take each step has a significance, and contributes directly or indirectly, to the world before us, and determine to an extent, be it infinitesimal or colossal, to the prospects and possibilities of our future. Ok, let it not sound so bombastic and hard to comprehend. In short, many say live in the present. Cherish the present. Seize the moment. Ok, whatever. Back to the question. When u cant imagine the outcome, or rather i should say if u are uncertain about something, will u advance in that direction based on a falsified imaginative prospect which u drafted in your mind (a dream people might say). Not saying that it is always a false hope, but humans are secure people, we desire for appreciation, certainty and affirmability.
Our thoughts play tricks on us. They can reward us, and can punish us. They can torture us. They can manipulate us. They can deceive us. Because we allowed it to. I have to admit we are all victims of our thoughts, especially when it comes to the negative effects that arise from it. In life we need a grip. Not just any ordinary grip, but this grip is intangible, and the source of this grip is the degree of our core acceptance. What can affect us, and what will not. What we choose to believe and what we choose not to. Ideas are everywhere, but what we choose to believe in is real. It's influence is overwhelming, into the nooks and crannies of our thoughts, especially evident in those reflexive, involuntary thoughts. Scary, arent they?
Ok i shall not damp the festive mood by posting such a philosophical entry. As much as i have problems, everyone has their problems. Lets find the other jigsaw pieces of our lives, lets play it a step at a time. Eventually, the puzzle will be formed. Life's greatest challenge is not the end product of the puzzle itself, but how we choose to piece the puzzle together. In the process lies everlasting joy and fulfilment. Its up to us.
Over and above, i would like to wish all a happy CNY!
January 21, 2008
Its not over, yet
思到如今难以令人忘怀，敏感之心为何如此倔强。落叶归根何忧之有，优柔寡断必成隐忧。
Some things just cant be left undone or not adequately handled. There are imperatives in life. But in front of me is an obstacle, a mental and psychological obstacle that hinders my long term functioning. Now it seems that though there are many rational things that i do in life, there is that fair bit of weakness in me that can lead to a disruptive lifestyle and thinking if it is allowed to consume my soul. Very abstract, complex, and hard to comprehend. But i know the answer is unbelievably simple, yet astonishing hard for me to get it.
Let it be there, but not for long. Its not over, yet.
Some things just cant be left undone or not adequately handled. There are imperatives in life. But in front of me is an obstacle, a mental and psychological obstacle that hinders my long term functioning. Now it seems that though there are many rational things that i do in life, there is that fair bit of weakness in me that can lead to a disruptive lifestyle and thinking if it is allowed to consume my soul. Very abstract, complex, and hard to comprehend. But i know the answer is unbelievably simple, yet astonishing hard for me to get it.
Let it be there, but not for long. Its not over, yet.
January 02, 2008
And here it comes, 2008
Oh that we were there. The familiar carolings ushered in the new year and bade farewell to the somewhat lacklustre year of 2007. To many, it signify the beginning of a great new outlook to life, with the setting of fantastic resolutions, allowing time to cast the final verdict when the christmas trees are here again this year. Everyone likes the idea of setting goals and resolutions, but similarly loathe and grudge the incompetence of the self to achieve what has been laid out. For me, some goals were accomplished, and some were leftovers for this year.
To recap my 2007, i think i've made friends who have always been supportive and there for me, though not a bunch (cos i think its impossible to have so many, in this case, quality is inversely proportional to quantity), or maybe the law of the conservation of friendship (ps calvin now this law works here :P). Good times we had, ranging from having a simple meal, to enjoying a game of badminton, xbox game, or the intensely meaningful shortlived but yet gratifying moment on 24th night at ritz carlton caroling with vj with eugene and calvin. Any further description i'll be revealing my personal life here haha.
Pink and Green have never been so clearly defined in my life. Any color blindness would have been instantly cured by this miracle remedy composed of three alphabets O,R and D. Army has been a great learning experience, i shall not deny for once, and accord merits to what i have been through. Due to sensitive issues, i shall not reveal the doings of my units which underpins my reasoning for the so called beneficial experience. Even in the darkest moments of mcing to the garang ones like duties, i'm glad that i've been there done that. Although there is always an opportunity cost, it is always good to have variation in life, just like there is always diversity in nature. You cant always go on a holiday to malaysia only and proclaim that u are a travel enthusiast. Similarly, you cant have all the ups in life being a life enthusiast.
The last 2 months of the years were spent working as a temporary admin assistant in 2 companies at raffles place. Monotonous the work was, but the work experience retained. At least i now know that i will never ever step into these jobs again.
And now for the new year. To strengthen those relationships i've made with close friends and to proceed on the next phase of my life. Relief teaching. Well a couple more of resolutions, but it shall not see the light here. Like what the army said, its Top Secret :)
Lastly, i like to share a definition of 温馨 as read from DuZhe (a magazine):
温馨，不是设计与布置的结果，不是刻意营造出来的。它储存在寻常人们所过的寻常日子里，偶一闪现，转瞬即逝，融解在寻常日子的交替中。它并没有消失，而是在光阴和岁月中渐渐沉淀，等待我们不经意间回想它。
Happiness and comfort need not be through deeds of substantial magnitude, for those are often transient and lack lustre. Instead, if its dosage be small, slow releasing, yet incessant, how nice will life be?
Haha ok i should stop dreaming.
To recap my 2007, i think i've made friends who have always been supportive and there for me, though not a bunch (cos i think its impossible to have so many, in this case, quality is inversely proportional to quantity), or maybe the law of the conservation of friendship (ps calvin now this law works here :P). Good times we had, ranging from having a simple meal, to enjoying a game of badminton, xbox game, or the intensely meaningful shortlived but yet gratifying moment on 24th night at ritz carlton caroling with vj with eugene and calvin. Any further description i'll be revealing my personal life here haha.
Pink and Green have never been so clearly defined in my life. Any color blindness would have been instantly cured by this miracle remedy composed of three alphabets O,R and D. Army has been a great learning experience, i shall not deny for once, and accord merits to what i have been through. Due to sensitive issues, i shall not reveal the doings of my units which underpins my reasoning for the so called beneficial experience. Even in the darkest moments of mcing to the garang ones like duties, i'm glad that i've been there done that. Although there is always an opportunity cost, it is always good to have variation in life, just like there is always diversity in nature. You cant always go on a holiday to malaysia only and proclaim that u are a travel enthusiast. Similarly, you cant have all the ups in life being a life enthusiast.
The last 2 months of the years were spent working as a temporary admin assistant in 2 companies at raffles place. Monotonous the work was, but the work experience retained. At least i now know that i will never ever step into these jobs again.
And now for the new year. To strengthen those relationships i've made with close friends and to proceed on the next phase of my life. Relief teaching. Well a couple more of resolutions, but it shall not see the light here. Like what the army said, its Top Secret :)
Lastly, i like to share a definition of 温馨 as read from DuZhe (a magazine):
温馨，不是设计与布置的结果，不是刻意营造出来的。它储存在寻常人们所过的寻常日子里，偶一闪现，转瞬即逝，融解在寻常日子的交替中。它并没有消失，而是在光阴和岁月中渐渐沉淀，等待我们不经意间回想它。
Happiness and comfort need not be through deeds of substantial magnitude, for those are often transient and lack lustre. Instead, if its dosage be small, slow releasing, yet incessant, how nice will life be?
Haha ok i should stop dreaming.
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