I am one who dont really exhibit/or maybe feel extreme emotions so far, and maybe sometimes i equate it to the lack of drive in anything i do, or want to do. Maybe i dont even feel very strongly at all for anything. Sound like an austere guy? I don't really know. I enjoy the simple pleasures in life, the everyday jokes, warm moments. But when it comes to a goal or target, sometimes i dont seem to have one, albeit it might have been a very weak one. When i achieve something, people might take my humbleness as a positive trait, but to me there is nothing to be proud in the first place? I dont downplay my achievements, but i felt that the achievement wasn't very much desired as a burning obssession. That is probably why satisfaction for me dont last, and i believe more in intrinsic happiness and fulfillment. I am an introspective person who likes to dwell in my innate, sometimes to the dismay of myself. I know this sounds like a disorder, but maybe just overly reflective. "Weakness is an overfunctioned strength, yea?"
You might not have understood what i have written so far, lest you can feel my pulse. But its ok, its never my intention to let people understand it. So if u do, please tell me, and i should say you probably understand a bit of me! :) There's more to it, and i believe if you know me personally, i always look calm and collected, but the world in me can be a turmoil.
Today is labour day, where we all take a break to think about what we have been doing all this while. This interesting topic of burning obssession suddenly struck me as a recurrent issue. Do share with me if u experienced it before. Let me understand its nature.
Lastly, i would like to share a quote by Albert Camus, a French existentialist author and philosopher, which i find it personally meaningful.
Don't walk behind me, for i may not lead.
Don't walk in front of me, for i may not follow
Just walk beside me and be my friend
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