The Birthday Theory

Technically speaking, birthdays are annual events, rare as they seem, but genuine as they are. Especially when hallmarks of growth are concerned, e.g. 21st etc (u get my meaning), people do really get into the joyous mood as if another festive season just arrived. Fantabulous (ok no such word) parties are thrown, impactful events to remember. Supposed to last a lifetime. But for me, which of course being a november baby, mine had to come, though excruciatingly slow people would say, but nevertheless being younger for a few months certainly made me feel more elated and grant me that humorous edge in life whenever i hang out with my peers.

Not to bore you all more with my suspicious intention of getting you familiar with some big or bombastic theory. Its just called Happy Birthday in English. Yes! 21st. What can it mean? it means you would have lived 21 years, many months, many many days, many many many hours, many many many many minutes, and lastly (or else you will stop reading i think..:) many many many many many seconds... Well, they say 21 is a pretty nice age, you are an adult, physically.. take note.. physically.. nothing to imply mental maturity, but yes, if u are not mature yet, keyword is ACT like one. And so the celebration begun.. it all started when oct came to an end.. people were focused so much on mid term examinations, and then this weird's guy bday just popped out of a sudden. Kinda interrupted the mugging mood.. But then.. as they say, birthday right? festive season right? yes so of course got some kinda mood..

Some chronological events here.. it all started like this.. sat afternoon, went singing with wl,eq and ct. Cut a sinful chocolate cake and finished by all of us there.. sun morning went to jalan kayu for prata (erm that was breakfast, but also kinda celebrating my bday..) as u can see, since sun was my bday, everything that has transpired on that day is deemed as "in celebration of the day".. Then of course i had my tuition after my breakfast, and had a couple of bday greetings that came along.. Then went back to sch, then went to sing k again, then came back hall with the last few hours spent wonderfully. Well its a matter of the mind, and i can recall how painful the last few minutes of my bday.. it was a countdown, except that it was a countdown to an end. So i guess it made no meaning.

But thats how it went in a nutshell, with some presents along the way. i must say its simple, yet very meaningful. I am satisfied, i am happy. there are somethings although, which i must admit, that are not very smooth along the way, some moments of regret and disappointment, but i appreciate that it came as part of this experience.

Life should not always be happy. There must be tension, and realisation. This period of my life has shown me yet again the people who really care for you, made an effort to stand by and reaffirm their emotional attachment to you. No man is an island, the invisible structures that hold you up as an individual surviving in this great world is revealing itself. I like that feeling. The feeling that u know you are not alone. The feeling that you know that there is something worth striving for.

I know some people like to list down those that wished them happy bday. But i dont like to based on once again a wise man's words (em, in case u are thinking who is it, its my room mate, eugene) - those who know you wont need this anyway, and those who are not close to you dont care anyway.

Oh ya, i almost forget about my title. its called the birthday theory :) it states that everyday is either your birthday or your belated birthday. Every moment you live should be, will be, and must be a moment of pure joy and fulfilling experience. To the mathematical person, 1 day of bday, 364 days of belated birthdays. So its never wrong to wish someone happy birthday, just add the belated word when necessary.
As if this theory is not nonsensical enough, let me say in utter solemnness that this is never a joke. The ability to live fulfillingly is not a want, but a desperate need in all humans.

My greatest birthday wish is to live a fulfilling life as such. To adhere in accordance to this seemingly idealistic birthday theory is not to kid myself, its to strive towards it.

Support my theory! Haha :)

Transience...

No one can ever be happy all the time. The mood of mine has been plunging into a rollercoaster ride. More often, it has been that of melancholic, depressing, and for a few rare instances, gratification and contentment. There are some problems in me that havent been resolved. It bogs up and down everytime, thankfully it isnt like simple harmonic motion with a constant periodicity. It is not that i have not tried to rein in the situation and seek a solution. The fact that the resolution is always tested against the menacing claws of time quenches my willpower and dampens whatever rationality there is in me that upheld the resolution in the first place. I feel so powerless. Yet in certain instances, or rather occasional ones, i manage to put up a fierce battle against the irrationality and triumph in sheer self-effacement. Well, not to discredit it, but the turmoil soon comes back. The vicious cycle emerges from its only dormant active state. And here i go again... transience.. what a word.. so succinct in its epitomisation of my plight..

Maybe the problem lies in the resolution.. probably its a lousy resolution..but any o how, it was already made to the best of my ability at that point in time. I probably need to refine it. Afterall, life is about progress, not perfection.. as i always put it across to myself. A barber cant cut his own hair, but at least he tries to. Until my next entry, i shall update you with this ferocious battle i face every day, every moment. It is okay if you do not understand what i say, because it is meant to be personal.

Just to draw a parallel to Hsienberg Uncertainty Principle, you cannot simultaneously locate the problem and the magnitude of the problem at the same time. Well the above is just to amaze myself and adopt a lighter outlook of the problem.

Meanwhile, with the exams roaring ahead.. it is almost inevitable that the countdown begins.. And the mugging instincts unleashed.

Till my next post, permanence shall be striked out of my vocab.

The Battle Of M&M

Its not the one that says melt in your mouth, not in your hands. The 2 Ms stand for macro and micro. I'm describing life. Life consists of macro and micro forms. It can be the mindset, it can be an act, it can span across various intentions. one common dilemma people face would be whether to focus on macro or micro. Some say we should always maintain the macro outlook while working on the micro. Some say that there are times to focus on the macro, and times to focus on the micro, it cannot be simultaneously well attended to. what's the right way actually then? is there even a right model which exists that is emboldened in successful personalities or characters? What is the right balance then if both macro and micro are needed concurrently?

Some of these questions have popped up recently. There are so many things that i've been doing. I've been feeling that i'm just scantily carrying out my daily routines, without any particular meaning or purposeful attention towards anything. I on the path to a jack of several trades. Has uni life changed my lifestyle? Or is it just a brand new stage of my life where there are changes?

A quote i saw on msn about RECESS week. it stands for Really Exciting Cos Everyone's So Stressed. I love the freedom to do what i want to in this much sought after break, including going back to hall to do some peaceful studying and surfing the net. 1 sem comes and go at lightning speed. Maybe its cos i just restarted school, so everything's so fresh! :)

Finally, the topic is back to ME!

School's been a month for me. The thrill is back again. I like the challenge of academics, though it makes me very stressed and surfaces my perfectionism. It brings back memories of intense studying, and highly stimulating moments. Well, the only difference in lifestyle between now and the good old jc and sec sch days is the greater autonomy given to us. No one cares if u dont wanna study or attend lectures. Sometimes you dont even feel socially out of place when u miss lessons. totally free. and there u also have the liberacy to join whatever clubs or committees you like, with the limiting factor being time. You can do almost as much as u want to achieve. I love staying in hostel, dont ask me why. Maybe it feels abit lonely u think, but there are times i feel secure and comfortable camping there. Well, honestly i dont have any much more stuff to ramble on. Feel people see it anyway.. well i kinda like the phrase on eugene's blog, that whoever who knows me would not need to read what i write about myself, and those that dont will not care anyway. There are things held in private which i would not want to share here, so this might not be the real me you are perceiving.

Life's been great so far, made new friends, adapted to the academic lifestyle, back into the self-contained academic warzone. The battle has just begun, i'm stretched on many ends, including trading.

Shooting Blanks, Scoring Zeros

Radical Honesty,by Dr. Brad Blanton, posted a rude awakening to my life. It depicts an absolute truth of not witholding the darkest fears and secrets of your life experiences to anyone, and hence able to live in the present, and experience being. This is indeed unpalatable on first hearing, but yet embeds a powerful logic behind human functioning. Humans escape our darkest fears, we repress our emotions, live beneath a sheath constructed for ourselves so that we feel secure. Our minds loathe uncertainty, and lusts for predictability. In some sense, we over controlled our minds. We created a shield or coat so that we can live in the socially correct or self perceived acceptable way without feeling any discomfort or tension. Dr Blad Blanton, with his slightly indignant tone of writing at times when portraying the rationale to being honest, rightfully vindicates the unconventional nature of telling the truth. the truth hurts, but to live freely, you must have the courage to experience the pain first, or even more pain, before you grow.

It is a tough decision to make, and we often lack the spiritual and emotional muscle to take the first step. It is a daunting task to tear down our own beliefs and adopt a new model of behaviour. We often dont, and its hard to sustain even if we started, it takes full determination and cooperation from others to make it work. The pathetic situation about us living behind a self constructed mask is just like shooting blanks - you get the sound effect but you don't experience the real effect. It functions just so to obey the convoluted instinct inside you. Some of us are too resistant to change, because change carries a price. Some of us are satisfied with living like this, cause change is unimaginable. But yet honesty in life is so vital. Not just honesty, but as Dr Blad said, Radical Honesty. Honesty that is unconventional, raw, and unadulterated. Words that mean truth and the absolute feelings, uncovered, naive, but genuine. Only when an outlet for expression is available that we are able grow out of it, with our creative instincts and sharp mental awareness. We learn from the here and now, be it the moment of glory or the devastating reality.

Things got to start somewhere. It needs to germinate, and continue to grow. Well this book hit quite well with my understanding of psychotherapy. It makes an intriguing read for anyone!

Click here for its website :)

TAR - Tension, Action, Reflection

Don't get me wrong, i'm not preaching smoking, nor am i lecturing biology. I am just immersed in my own world of thinking once again. And so the journey begins..

TAR, in short, or rather in my perception, represents a cyclic process or routine that makes up the micro and macro parts of our life. Our life consists of many TAR processes repeatedly experienced.. Let me cite you an example. You feel the urge to go for this chocolate buffet due to a long craving for chocolate. You decide to halt the hesitation and ignoring your subconscious which keeps remind you of the sin that you are putting yourself through (chocolates!!), you go for it..So after the buffet, you feel good/bad depending on how u initially perceived ur actions.. maybe guilt cos u can't resist ur urge, maybe satisfaction because u indulged urself exquisitely.Then you concluded after evaluation that it is okay to pamper yourself once in a while and not feel bad. Maybe even setting up a routine so that this becomes a regular perk to motivate you towards greater goals in life. This eg delineates an entire process of tension, action and reflection. Now lets go in depth into the 3 elements.

Tension - A feeling/sensation, positive or negative, that causes you to literally feel charged up. This could result from a push, a pull in any combinations from any number of sides. Ok this sound pretty much like forces in physics. But there you go,translating it in life, this is it. Tension doesn't recognise direction, it comes in any magnitude, from anyone, even including yourself. It includes encouragement, discouragement, motivation, despondence etc. Any thing that constitutes an attractive/repulsive force which "charges" us up for fight/flight would qualify. But take note, feeling good after obtaining good results for e.g. might be a one time off sensation and doesnt contribute to further developments later on do not come under tension.. these are just passing events.. they are spectators, decorations.

Action - This is the real thing. Something visible, tangible. A manifestation of our innate charged up tendencies. How we feel is reflected in what we do. What we achieve is what we conceive. Why we do it is how we feel it should be done. Thats it. Simple. Yet the jewel lies in this process. The takeaways in life are encapsulated, more often disguised, buried, and enmeshed in this bizzare, perplexing, and sometimes outwardly threatening event. The timeframe for our execution of actions can be long, short, it doesnt matter. The fact is our learning point commences here. Cliches like life is a journey, not a destination, what we do is not important as how we do, it is the process that matters etc, takes its meaning through it. Different people gain different insights and feelings through their actions. Some serve as big revelations, discoveries, some serve to validate their own viewpoints. The baseline is: we all learn something. What everyone learn is unique to him/herself.

Reflection - Most people never do this enough. Reflection is not easy. It involves thinking about what you've learnt about in your actions, and evaluate it for the better growth of yourself. That is to say, there must be a conclusion and an end to what you found out. It must be specific. For e.g, this has helped me in... i would not want to do this again.. ok these are just VERY SUPERFICIAL examples. Keyword here is think. Think hard and think deep. Align it to your purpose of the event. Re-orientate it to you current situation in life. Reposition yourself after your actions, re-evaluate your current position, and plan the next path. Make some decisions. Discard what is useless to you, be it thoughts, ideas, anything tangible included. reflection is the bridge to your next mission in life. you need the link, or else you are just mundane. you are stagnating, going through motion.

So herein i've tried as best as possible to explain these 3 elements of TAR. Every element is equally important and has its reason for existence. However i would like to stress that every individual might not experience or i should say derive the full benefits of every stage. Some might not reflect enough, some do not place importance on their learning experiences, some simply ward off tension in their lives because of fear. To each he moulds his own way of life. We can experience more cycles than many others in that short period of time. It differs. Important thing is that we move, we progress, and we are not afraid to face it.

I hope

2.5 years passed in the blink of an eye, be it the green times, or the current disorientated transition period after my ORD. Whatever it is, times of studying seems to be back again.. this time, it would be a different me undergoing the tenacity and rigour of the academics test. My life has been stretched in the past 2.5 years i would say, and i had experienced something distinctly different from the past 18 years of my pre-university life. One major change is the awareness that i must be independent, that i am no longer in the days of relishing in my own comfort zone. I know in this process this would be a tough period, where sacrifices need to be dished. In my various endeavours so far, while i have found meaning in whatever i do, i have not fully found my real direction and intrinsic meaning in life. While i allowed myself to experience the trials and tribulations, the intricate details of existence, i have not galvanised myself to act upon them, to form convictions and strengths within to chart my own path. I am rather thankful to many of my dear friends whom without them, i wont be able to taste the niceties of progressing through life as a team, rather as an individual, to do the little things together, enjoying our insignificant yet joyous and inflated moments of pride.

Uni beckons next, with a whole new world to me. Not the people, not the academics, not anything. Its a challenge to me because my routine is going to be changed. My expectations would need to be altered. My act of balancing have to be refined for the better. My own psyche has to adapt well. The nitty gritty of it all seems to expands in front of me.

I hope, and i hope. No. I will, and i must.

Till then, if you are still reading this, give me a nudge. My fortnightly posts are turning into a monthly one if u observe. But well, does it depend on the readership?

Please, this question is not rhetoric, do answer! :P

Yes/No, you decide.

I like quotes about life, don't know why.

Life is a journey, not a destination
Life's about progress, not perfection
Life is about balance, not extremes
Life is about laughter, not the joke
Life is a game, not the results
Life is about the whys, not the whats and hows

My last self created inspiration about life...

Life is about living in fearless eternity, creating a unique prototype where you base your self-esteem and source of significance, seeking life progresses from within, achievements from the internal, through our interactions with the external reality. We are who we are, as much as we allow ourselves innately.

Blank Slate

Time to blog again ppl, and now.. the topic is on...(drum rolls).. blank slate!!

Haha how boring and anti climax. Dont wanna give ppl the impression that i'm such a boring and philosophical person, but just dun know how man.. these are my thoughts, the thoughts of a humble, under-appreciated (kidding la, i'm not looking out for appreciation anyways) teenager STILL on crossroads, but saw the dim traffic lights. Things are getting abit less cloudy for me, but worries still unabating of course. My life has been revolutionising, from being plagued by my own emotions to being aware of it. I need to move on to appreciation! Ok before the real anti-climax arrives, i'd better fast foward my ramblings and pass on the mike to the inner voice in me. Today's discussion would be just 2 words - blank slate

Nature brought on each and everyone of us as a blank slate, an untainted prototype of human, readily accepting any form of influence and impact. The mind, the body, everything, ironically, knows nothing about existence. Our environment starts to mould our physical appearance, imbue character, infuse thinking, and trigger behaviour. We start to become alive. We start to respond and participate in the world arena. Most importantly, we form the circle of influence towards others, including those very senior in this world, and also not excluding new blank slates. Every word we say, every action, might not be recorded, but it certainly possessed an impact on the world. Every thought produces a wave, every action bestows progress. Every minuscle input by us changes our circumstance in someway, albeit often unrealised.

You would hear people saying that a blank slate will no longer remain one. When time marches on, the slate is coloured, tinted, tainted, adored, or maybe disfigured. Now this begs a very perplex question: Can we undo these changes, and return to the pure, demure state? Can we go back, make a choice, relive our lives, choose the influence, behave differently, and redecorate the picture of our slate again? A historian will vehemently deny this. But being a humanist like me, i say we can. We can choose to live all over once again. Not time machine or stuff like that. I mean the kind of live we envision how we should have lived in the past, applying it now. We can erase away all the markings, but we must first be aware of their existence, and who painted it on us. We must decipher the influence that has been brought upon us by the environment. We need to understand our makings. How did it happen?

Ok before you see stars, let me assure you that i'm still writing english. There is a reason for our behaviour, our actions. It is our beliefs and thinking. There is a reason for our beliefs and thinking, and that is our predisposition. And our predisposition has been the result of our interactions with the environment around us. Anything beneath would just be a blank slate.

Sun Tzi said that knowing yourself and others suffice to win all battles. Knowing yourself would logically imply that you win half the battle. In fact, people do not achieve 100 percent self-realisation. Many parts of us remain unexplored. But life moves on. We constantly react to the world in ways being governed by our innate, more often unaware of it as clear as we ought to. Its time to discover why we feel in this way, why we think like this, and why we behave in such a characteristic manner. It's time to be a third party in your life. Observe the being in front of you, yourself. Treat it like the computer in front of you. Understand it thoroughly. Understand the programming language. For example, you feel angry easily because you belief you are easily irritable. So what causes that irritability? Any past event, experience, trauma that probably cultivated that trait? Any influence that shaped your low threshold for tolerance? Give yourself some time to seek a solution. Find the underlying connection. Solve the puzzle. Seek the missing link.

With this mystery solved, you will be better able to live a well-informed life. You will see yourself in another way. You will better accept your behaviour, and can proceed on to make changes you desire. This is the power that i am referring, the power to reinvent ourself, to recreate our blank slate, and erase it again. To be able to master our destiny is to understand human tendencies, and to be the author of our stories.

Life is a drawing board, you choose the picture, the colour combination and you paint it yourself. There will always exist a chance for you to erase and redraw, but you must first know the reason why you drew it in the first place. Or else no matter how you repaint, you will always be unhappy.

Action and Motivation - Chicken & Egg Qn?

How often do you get out of bed and lament that you don't feel like waking up and start work today? Casting the tiredness aside, when was the time u said to urself on a fresh day that you don't feel like doing anything today? Or maybe you put up an excuse of laziness, lethargy, listless, which of course points out to the intrinsic lack of motivation in you. That being said, i can vow that the day ahead would not be fulfilling. This group of people need to be triggered or activated.

Then there is another realm where people do not have a choice, or rather are obligated to do what they have to do daily, for eg going to work, schooling, army, etc. Yet when you speak to some of them, they seem to exude vibrancy and vitality. Their routine seems to disturb them the least. (ok, i'm referring to most, not all) They seem to find motivation in what they are doing, and their focus is on what comes on through their doings, not what comes before their doings.

Comparing the latter to the former, this begs the question of whether action or motivation should come first. We know that we need both elements for achievement of our goals, but the good question is which is the first prerequisite? To believe that we will derive satisfaction and inspiration through our doings, or to seek for a driving force for our actions?

In my humble opinion, i believe this depends on the personality and philosophy of each individual. I am however inclined to understand it in this other manner: maybe the more emotional people leverage on motivation, while the more concrete/realistic people might identify with the aims and perks and kickstart actions, seeking motivations along the way (leveraging on actions). I'm not pointing to any weakness of character here, different people are predisposed differently. Both groups of people possess the potential to achieve big. Emotional-inclined individuals who leverage on motivation harness on the immeasurable innate driving force that seeks to materialise our dreams through subsequently established actions, while concrete/realistic based individuals channel their energies onto goal-oriented actions and derive motivation alongside their doings, sustaining their momentum till their dream is materialised.

Which type are you? Share with me if you think my above hypothesis is true :D

Another quote for today:

We think so because all other people think so;
Or because afterall, we do think so;
Or because we were told so, and think we must think so;
Or because we once thought so, and think we still think so;
Or because having thought so, we think we will still think so.

Henry Sidgwick (1838-1900)

Burning Obssession

Has anyone ever experienced that and care to share with me how it feels like? Is it something which grips the soul and awfully devastates it when our desires are not met, or is it an unwavering determination/positive aura that guards our dreams against the devilish distractions?

I am one who dont really exhibit/or maybe feel extreme emotions so far, and maybe sometimes i equate it to the lack of drive in anything i do, or want to do. Maybe i dont even feel very strongly at all for anything. Sound like an austere guy? I don't really know. I enjoy the simple pleasures in life, the everyday jokes, warm moments. But when it comes to a goal or target, sometimes i dont seem to have one, albeit it might have been a very weak one. When i achieve something, people might take my humbleness as a positive trait, but to me there is nothing to be proud in the first place? I dont downplay my achievements, but i felt that the achievement wasn't very much desired as a burning obssession. That is probably why satisfaction for me dont last, and i believe more in intrinsic happiness and fulfillment. I am an introspective person who likes to dwell in my innate, sometimes to the dismay of myself. I know this sounds like a disorder, but maybe just overly reflective. "Weakness is an overfunctioned strength, yea?"

You might not have understood what i have written so far, lest you can feel my pulse. But its ok, its never my intention to let people understand it. So if u do, please tell me, and i should say you probably understand a bit of me! :) There's more to it, and i believe if you know me personally, i always look calm and collected, but the world in me can be a turmoil.

Today is labour day, where we all take a break to think about what we have been doing all this while. This interesting topic of burning obssession suddenly struck me as a recurrent issue. Do share with me if u experienced it before. Let me understand its nature.

Lastly, i would like to share a quote by Albert Camus, a French existentialist author and philosopher, which i find it personally meaningful.

Don't walk behind me, for i may not lead.
Don't walk in front of me, for i may not follow
Just walk beside me and be my friend

Emotion Potential (EP)

Men are driven by emotions and innate beliefs. When we feel strongly about a particular earthly object, person or matter, we develop a gradual/strong desire to possess it. Our mind paints a picture of the lovely yearning, filling it with imaginably exotic details and amazingly flawless satisfaction upon acquiring it. The idea is constantly reinforced by going through repeated reinvigoration of itself, feeding our soul the necessary "energies" to inch forward in our pursuits. More often than not, an enemy by the name of distraction comes along with a energy sapping device, draining away the gusto and extinguishes the flame of our barely lited dreams. They attack us when we are the least determined, ambivalent in our convictions, and most vulnerable to external influences. When this enemy comes near, its aura cannot be missed. Just like the stock market, our emotional indicators will fluctuate, oscillate unpredictably, maybe just like the fibonacci sequence. We go on an irrational ride, and steadily losing grip of ourselves. Engulfed in emotions, the usual composed rational disposition is overwhelmed. Flickering flame, befuddled individual. So where do people turn for help?


Many places. Sometimes almost everywhere except themselves. They recognise their own weaknesses, but they do not know the it is their very self that provides the strongest form of support, the most turgid cushion to lift us from the quagmire, and the most reliable companion to see us through rough times. I do not deny "no man is an island", and neither do I downplay any external help. When we seek help, we are just finding another avenue to affirm the positive thoughts or the so called resolution that we have inside ourselves all the time. That inner strength just wasn't sufficiently recognised and utilised. So do some inner searching, for in times of real emotional downs, more often if we are patient with ourselves and standby our emotions, ackowledging them as normal, and then adopt a third party view of oneself, we might very well discover the antidote to our long-troubling malady. It takes courage, it takes understanding, thats why external help just serves to facilitate our transition to become a more courageous and self-accepting person.

Having faith in something seems to work for some people in achieving their goals, while for others it is to no avail. Does that mean the faith is less sincere or less intense? What governs the law of faith in its galvanisation of our actions? Is believing a catalyst to achieving? Yes many can testify, and copious evidences lend credence. But in all cases, constructive action has been existent in the process of realising the aim. So does faith leads to positive action and focused effort? Where is the missing link?

I am no one to offer an explanation, but my humble guess points out to the extent that these aims/goals occupy our mind and thoughts. Not only how long, but how deep, how wide, and how we always consciously refresh its image to enliven it. Yes, how real. Being intense or sincere isnt the same as how real! Humans connect to images and visions differently. We respond to signals in varying degrees of affection, and the magnitude of these affective temperaments is exclusive to one only. If i am happy, and i describe to you with the best vocabulary i have, best phrase or whatsoever, you would still be not able to know the intrinsic value of it. Not because we cannot assign a value to emotions, but because we do not know the Emotion Potential (EP) of what we are feeling now.

Emotions are actually stored energies. Just like ATP (adenosine triphosphates), they have the potential to be harnessed to do work (actions). The potency of these stored energies in us would accurately depict our desire, faith or belief in any aim, goal, ambition, or any desirable object/matter. In my opinion, potency is the measure of tendency/capacity for action. So the emotion potential beholds the key to our sustained motivation, execution and achievement of our desires. They arent like machines which lift our arms and legs to do work, neither do they provide us with instructions, manuals or what to do next. There aint any free meal on earth. But they provide the substance, the most fundamental fuel in our lives. They governs an individuals behaviour towards procuring objects of their liking. They determine how one would respond to external challenges in the proces, the journey.

Abstract? first i mentioned about humans having different affections towards external events, then introduced emotion potential, and linked it to one's performance towards achieving what we set out for ourselves. I also said about dreams being real, not just realistic and prevalent. Ok, i'm not the first one to advocate this, but most of us fail to put in effort in making what we want real and an within distance. Much more can be said about emotion potential (EP), a relatively unfamiliar concept which just came to me in the midst of this writing. I will try to share more when i discover more insights!

Thank you for your patience, my dear readers :)

Disclaimer: I am a novice in this, so do guide and critisize whenever u deem necessary. However, if you are disturbed in this highly erroneous(in your opinion) post, let me pacify you by referring you to my title: Benign Manifestations. Understand these two words well. That will quell any turbulence within you.