Meeting the Big Boss

As life challenges get thrown at you and major hurdles present you with insufficient time to effectively deal with them, I know only one word - overwhelmed. These few days have been practically a bullet train to me, and will always be for me before the academic year begins. As my inner expectations mount, i have been reminding myself often to keep my instep realisations deep in my heart - that life is not a rat race. To prevent getting yourself into a rat race in the future does not justify getting yourself into frenzy mode now. And yet i always have that feeling that i am in a state of overdrive. Time passes me without even caring to acknowledge my presence. No Hi, No bye.

I feel an internal struggle in me so hard that it seems to be a time bomb in me ticking even though i seem to be able to quell it momentarily. Just like the Iceland volcano that may erupt anytime. I know i am facing the greatest enemy of my life - the big boss, none other than my dear self. Fighting against yourself is no mean feat. Sometimes, they say that resistance is futile. Knowing that you have to counter the very device that you have meticulously created to work perfectly is one on hand seemingly ridiculous, and on the other hand cowardly. The power of our subconscious desires that have always been governing our behaviours, actions and responses can not be underestimated. We may not understand them completely, but they are operating on us incessantly. In a way, we have to decipher who we are, why we behave in this way.

When we learn of new ideas and new desires, we hope to assimilate and integrate them into our way of life. We hope to achieve some goals, targets and objectives we set for ourselves at various points in life. But when these beliefs contradict some of the existing motives inside us and we do not even realise it, this spells trouble. We face the big boss.

When we fight the big boss in arcade simulation games, we always aim to beat it till it KOs. In life, you don't kill the boss. You have to live with it, make adjustments, and find a way out. Spend some time, understand the boss, and have the courage to take it on.

The process is in itself as rewarding, because even if you fail, you will still get a second chance in life. Keep trying :)