NSF

This is a very familiar word to all. It leaves indelible memories to some, trauma to others. It bears different imprints on the minds of teenagers. People have different thoughts and feelings about how they are actually living through their NS lives now, which is largely deterministic in their opinions about this compulsory tour of their lives.

The dreadful NS life is taking its toll on me, precisely because i've found no motivation to do the work in front of me, even when i should be doing right now because i'm on duty. Its like a freaking labour day and i'm fated to slog it out here in what u think is such a physically comfortable air conditioned environment. In contrary, it is so stuffy. The air is stale, the mood is stagnant, the work is dead. No pride in our work? How to benchmark pride in the first place? Pride to one might be shame to others. Duties aren't exactly that bad as compared to the normal daily work already, as there are much lesser people to look over us. There have been certain subtle shades of us being part of some national slavery force. I look upon this two years as something which i had hoped initially to gain something out of it. No doubt, i had learnt alot. But i feel that i'm still somehow detached to the outside world. I feel like as if i should not be doing what i am supposed to do now. Someone has imprisoned me in a cage for 2 years.

Oops, ok..i might have just indulged in a few minutes of my self pity. I tend to feel it once in a while, especially with like 188 days more to ORD. Pardon me. I have been diverting my attention to my non-NS life, like chorale and friend outings. I think ultimately the way to move on is to continue to add variety to my monotonous routine. Stagnancy is indeed the greatest evil of all! Let me move on now..