Its quite a paradox that i'm writing about heart and soul now when my previous post shows an almost hopeless case of existence. I have watched youtube these past few months on GTO and gokusen season 1. And all i would like to extract out from these two episodes are just four words: Sweat from your Heart. It was said by yankumi, the lead actress/model teacher starred. I think what most of us sometimes lack is what people usually call the X factor when they its so indescribable, or label it as passion (a rather overrated understatement). It is something more intense, something that drives endless tolling and empowers an unbridled desire to pursue individual dreams. It is surely very idealistic to explain it as above, but the moral of the story revolves around devotion.
Everyone probably has the same desire for something similar, but they might not have similar extent of hunger and yearn. That probably sets them apart. A person who has a heart for something might not perform as well as one who has heart and soul. Lets learn to inject some soul into our dreams and hopes, lets learn how to spur ourselves on, i think this skill is easier said than picked up. Even if we successfully do so for once, sustainability becomes the next obstacle. It needs to be ingrained in us. It's probably a culture, more than a learned behaviour. It needs to be involuntary, totally natural. Cultivation of such innate resilience warrants an interminable period of time.
April 28, 2007
April 26, 2007
Souless-Existence
For how many times in our lives do we feel that we have been unfairly treated, but yet lack the authority to uphold justice for ourselves? Sometimes there might just be that tiny chance of hope to fight for our own rights, but yet we let it pass by because of insufficient courage. Sometimes i hate myself for not being able to go all out for what i really want to pursue, in all aspects of my life. Its just that dithering in me that retards my efficiency in life, and i fear that it might prove costly to me some day. Procrastination, yes it might sound as if i am a patient of this disease, but being an optimistic person, you could also think it another way. Procrastination can also create the time u need to carefully consider ur options again.
Somehow i feel that my life is impeded. I seem to possess this humongous inertia which takes more than willpower to overcome it. Probably it needs a nasty nudge. Well, i must say that although my life now doesnt really need me to step out of my comfort zone to mug or do something so intensively, i really think that by just squandering day by day away, i'm not much worse off than spending a life in prison. I know i might have intentionally exaggerated, but that is how i genuinely feel at my inept. I'm now like a free rotating weak magnet dangling around to face whatever's near that is attracting me, constantly changing my direction of motion. If life is a cumulative process, i would at best have accomplished nothing.
Sometimes i wish turning the time back to jc or sec sch years, where although time might be tight, i was spiritual bound to a cause for existence. My soul now revolves around transience and instant gratification. My immediate desires are easily fulfilled, but my long term goals are increasing obscured. As the time passes by, i plunge deeper into this abyss of self-disintegration, or what many call as rotting. I need to save myself, and i am fully aware that i am my only saviour.
I have always been trying hard. And i will continue to do so. I'm fortunate i can at the very least still realise my deterioration. It is really true to hear people say that the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Something has to turn out as a result of my tenacity, and that remains to be seen. I shall elaborate no further, as if u realise this is also part of my rotting at work.
Till next time then. Nil Sine Labore.
Somehow i feel that my life is impeded. I seem to possess this humongous inertia which takes more than willpower to overcome it. Probably it needs a nasty nudge. Well, i must say that although my life now doesnt really need me to step out of my comfort zone to mug or do something so intensively, i really think that by just squandering day by day away, i'm not much worse off than spending a life in prison. I know i might have intentionally exaggerated, but that is how i genuinely feel at my inept. I'm now like a free rotating weak magnet dangling around to face whatever's near that is attracting me, constantly changing my direction of motion. If life is a cumulative process, i would at best have accomplished nothing.
Sometimes i wish turning the time back to jc or sec sch years, where although time might be tight, i was spiritual bound to a cause for existence. My soul now revolves around transience and instant gratification. My immediate desires are easily fulfilled, but my long term goals are increasing obscured. As the time passes by, i plunge deeper into this abyss of self-disintegration, or what many call as rotting. I need to save myself, and i am fully aware that i am my only saviour.
I have always been trying hard. And i will continue to do so. I'm fortunate i can at the very least still realise my deterioration. It is really true to hear people say that the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Something has to turn out as a result of my tenacity, and that remains to be seen. I shall elaborate no further, as if u realise this is also part of my rotting at work.
Till next time then. Nil Sine Labore.
April 20, 2007
I regret to say...
Many people often lament about their choices made in life, with some regretting their past actions. From time to time, humans invariably comment on things in retrospect, saying sorry, regretful, etc, and that we seem to resign to fate at every unpalatable outcome. Maybe "regret" is only an emoticon that we assign it to describe how we feel now. Is it really possible to live a life without regret as many others would want to? Some behold these glorious dreams just to find that they are indulging in self-deceit. Some find it mission impossible as we cant guarantee the outcome of our choices. But whatever we choose, i must admit that we have rightfully considered our choices and evaluated it as best as we can. So some of us tell ourselves that I have done my best and have no regrets. But can this languid attempt of self-assurance salvage any emotional turmoil from a bleak turnout?
Maybe not i guess. We'll be forced to acknowledge the reality and accept the consequence of our decision. Just as we start to repent, we would probably recall previous warnings and signs of disaster, or suddenly remembering a particular someone whose advice u chosen to ignore. Though there is no point in grieving over the mistake, it is crucial to learn from often-dismissed reminders in our lives given by insignificant people around us whom we have taken for granted. We ought to admonish ourselves for not considering heeding their warnings seriously, as every occurrence in this world entails a reason behind it, be it conspicuous or oblique.As much as we might blame the world for the uncertain uncertainties that ruined our choices, it does not diminish the responsibility on us for not giving due attention to the world which has also provided certainties. We should not play the blame game.
So sometimes we should not be so parochial. Minute sparks at any corner can lead to an inferno. In the event that something untoward does occur, "regret", and its other synonymphs, are merely overrated words, just like sorry itself.
Pay attention to the world around you.
Maybe not i guess. We'll be forced to acknowledge the reality and accept the consequence of our decision. Just as we start to repent, we would probably recall previous warnings and signs of disaster, or suddenly remembering a particular someone whose advice u chosen to ignore. Though there is no point in grieving over the mistake, it is crucial to learn from often-dismissed reminders in our lives given by insignificant people around us whom we have taken for granted. We ought to admonish ourselves for not considering heeding their warnings seriously, as every occurrence in this world entails a reason behind it, be it conspicuous or oblique.As much as we might blame the world for the uncertain uncertainties that ruined our choices, it does not diminish the responsibility on us for not giving due attention to the world which has also provided certainties. We should not play the blame game.
So sometimes we should not be so parochial. Minute sparks at any corner can lead to an inferno. In the event that something untoward does occur, "regret", and its other synonymphs, are merely overrated words, just like sorry itself.
Pay attention to the world around you.
April 13, 2007
Law Of Attraction + Brainwash
CO screened the law of attraction a couple of weeks ago for all in our unit. I was rather prepared for something more philosophical and introspective when he suddenly announced the movie screening. I mean, through his blog and given that its literally office hours, how ridiculous it is to screen a casual movie unless it is one which has a greater profound meaning and realisation behind it?
Yes, so we sat inside the comfy conference room, and we were introduced to that show. It started off like some advertising gimmick, brandishing confidence in its purported "secret" It appeared far-fetched at first impression, but you know, since its CO's show,it would definitely reveal some substance later on. So my patience was put to the test. But surprisingly, stories unfold and we were later enticed to know what's really the secret. And it was told as the law of attraction. So whats really the law of attraction? As its name implies, its like the workings of a magnet; you attract it, it comes into your life. Ok, i'll stop the narration now. Its time for me to give an insight to my opinion of the law of attraction.
A couple of posts ago, i emphasized that humans are actually rationale creatures, and we play a significant part in formulating our own perception of things. Law of attraction is a tool for this crafting process. As we let our mind wonder, our brain would think of something randomly. It never stops working, just like our heart. The only difference is whether it appears immediately conspicuous to our soul, or whether we pick these vague signals up. When we do so, we are casting an imaginary net to capture that object, (i.e. capture the thought that emanates). Then our mind ruminates over it, churning out a myriad of possibly related happenings and links to it. Through passive reorganisation of these bit-sized details, we piece together the full picture of our jigsaw puzzle, which is a perception. So the law of attraction takes up a primary role in gathering this bit-sized fragments.
For example, when approaching an examination, we involuntarily invite the element of fear into our minds, consciously reminding ourselves that we havent start preparing and would be doomed to fail. When we introduce this fragment into our mind, we are obviously trimming our perception to accomodate this negative element. In fact, law of attraction happens too sub-conscious that many people proclaim to self-despair that they cannot rein in their perceptions. Well, it isnt as easy as i say to just tell yourself to think of optimistic things so that our fragents would be positively connotated and as such our perception is a desirable one. The greatest hurdle of mankind is its ability to acquire complete authority over its emotional factory. We are adept at obtaining things which are tangible, but we it comes to the intangibles, we put up a weak front.
Thus, i believe that there must be a "revamp" or a "reboot" of our human minds at times. Or literally a brainwash, or in the techno sense, a reformatting of our hard disks. Its definitely not back to an original blank slate, but rather giving ourselves a chance at repicking our fragments. This "revamp" i am talking about actually happens by two ways: Passive or Active.
Passive: It happens rarely in humans in my opinion, only for the selected few. These people have extraordinary willpower and conviction. But in tandem with these two qualities they must yet be receptive. Most people do not belong in this category, because although they might have a strong willpower, they are also resistant to changes.
Active: This refers to the environmental factor. The situation and circumstances surrounding us. The force of nature, not its wrath though. The essence of it is a sudden, swift, unexpected change in our environment such that it weightily impacts on us, automating the self-discovery of our perceptive obsoleteness and redundancy. Its like "a knock on our head" to make it simple. But of course chancing upon such circumstances isnt that much frequent either, but it is the predominant stimulus for perpception changes in humans.
Right, i guess i've delved too deeply into the micro aspects of perceptions. For those who dont really understand the above load of rubbish, do not get frustrated and irritated here. Take a deep breath, take it easy. For if u attract such worked-up thoughts, you are likely to get a bad day today.
So now do you understand it? =)
Yes, so we sat inside the comfy conference room, and we were introduced to that show. It started off like some advertising gimmick, brandishing confidence in its purported "secret" It appeared far-fetched at first impression, but you know, since its CO's show,it would definitely reveal some substance later on. So my patience was put to the test. But surprisingly, stories unfold and we were later enticed to know what's really the secret. And it was told as the law of attraction. So whats really the law of attraction? As its name implies, its like the workings of a magnet; you attract it, it comes into your life. Ok, i'll stop the narration now. Its time for me to give an insight to my opinion of the law of attraction.
A couple of posts ago, i emphasized that humans are actually rationale creatures, and we play a significant part in formulating our own perception of things. Law of attraction is a tool for this crafting process. As we let our mind wonder, our brain would think of something randomly. It never stops working, just like our heart. The only difference is whether it appears immediately conspicuous to our soul, or whether we pick these vague signals up. When we do so, we are casting an imaginary net to capture that object, (i.e. capture the thought that emanates). Then our mind ruminates over it, churning out a myriad of possibly related happenings and links to it. Through passive reorganisation of these bit-sized details, we piece together the full picture of our jigsaw puzzle, which is a perception. So the law of attraction takes up a primary role in gathering this bit-sized fragments.
For example, when approaching an examination, we involuntarily invite the element of fear into our minds, consciously reminding ourselves that we havent start preparing and would be doomed to fail. When we introduce this fragment into our mind, we are obviously trimming our perception to accomodate this negative element. In fact, law of attraction happens too sub-conscious that many people proclaim to self-despair that they cannot rein in their perceptions. Well, it isnt as easy as i say to just tell yourself to think of optimistic things so that our fragents would be positively connotated and as such our perception is a desirable one. The greatest hurdle of mankind is its ability to acquire complete authority over its emotional factory. We are adept at obtaining things which are tangible, but we it comes to the intangibles, we put up a weak front.
Thus, i believe that there must be a "revamp" or a "reboot" of our human minds at times. Or literally a brainwash, or in the techno sense, a reformatting of our hard disks. Its definitely not back to an original blank slate, but rather giving ourselves a chance at repicking our fragments. This "revamp" i am talking about actually happens by two ways: Passive or Active.
Passive: It happens rarely in humans in my opinion, only for the selected few. These people have extraordinary willpower and conviction. But in tandem with these two qualities they must yet be receptive. Most people do not belong in this category, because although they might have a strong willpower, they are also resistant to changes.
Active: This refers to the environmental factor. The situation and circumstances surrounding us. The force of nature, not its wrath though. The essence of it is a sudden, swift, unexpected change in our environment such that it weightily impacts on us, automating the self-discovery of our perceptive obsoleteness and redundancy. Its like "a knock on our head" to make it simple. But of course chancing upon such circumstances isnt that much frequent either, but it is the predominant stimulus for perpception changes in humans.
Right, i guess i've delved too deeply into the micro aspects of perceptions. For those who dont really understand the above load of rubbish, do not get frustrated and irritated here. Take a deep breath, take it easy. For if u attract such worked-up thoughts, you are likely to get a bad day today.
So now do you understand it? =)
April 05, 2007
Stagnancy - Definitely NOT in Life
Do you think that things can ever be left stagnant when unperturbed, unaroused, or even untouched? To examine inanimate objects from a shallow point of view, a pot of articifial flowers placed on a table top would never change its position unless an external force is exerted. Sounds pretty like Newton's First Law? We don't discern visible movements or displacements, but above this superficial observation, is it really of value to probe into why people say things would never remain the same again?
A famous Chinese proverb, 学如逆水行舟，不进则退. In fact many things, not only academics, exhibit such dichotomy. Nothing stands still. When u don't move, u are falling back. Be it relative to others or relative to the environment. Our mind sometimes distort what we see as "not moving" mainly because we are curtailing our vision and concern to the object relative to itself. Its actually deception. Many of our judgements made with relevance to our daily lives are often consequences of mismanaged perception, or rather our "inept" ability to obtain a rationale view of occurrences around us. As such, we have made negative advancements in our life. We are falling back.
In fact, we live our lives half the time in our own world, with only the other half responding to the ever changing environment. Humans are conservative creatures, this is undeniable. The fact that we think for ourselves, and sometimes exhibit necessary selfish stints, are testaments to us living partially in our own world. When we have two different realms of existence, our job in life is to reconcile them. It is a demanding job, a job which most blunder. The way to do it well is not to compromise any, instead accommodate both. How do we match our inner world to the outer such that it exists in equilibrium all the time? That's the key. What distinguishes a human being from another is her unique manifestation and actions of reconciliation.
Life somewhat obeys Le Chatelier principle, as what we known in chemistry. We cant afford to experience extremes for a prolonged period of time, and yet there will never be a period of calm. Stagnancy is a misnomer in the context of life, and would not really so too at death. For one's death creates a ripple in the lives of others, and this chain goes on and on.
A famous Chinese proverb, 学如逆水行舟，不进则退. In fact many things, not only academics, exhibit such dichotomy. Nothing stands still. When u don't move, u are falling back. Be it relative to others or relative to the environment. Our mind sometimes distort what we see as "not moving" mainly because we are curtailing our vision and concern to the object relative to itself. Its actually deception. Many of our judgements made with relevance to our daily lives are often consequences of mismanaged perception, or rather our "inept" ability to obtain a rationale view of occurrences around us. As such, we have made negative advancements in our life. We are falling back.
In fact, we live our lives half the time in our own world, with only the other half responding to the ever changing environment. Humans are conservative creatures, this is undeniable. The fact that we think for ourselves, and sometimes exhibit necessary selfish stints, are testaments to us living partially in our own world. When we have two different realms of existence, our job in life is to reconcile them. It is a demanding job, a job which most blunder. The way to do it well is not to compromise any, instead accommodate both. How do we match our inner world to the outer such that it exists in equilibrium all the time? That's the key. What distinguishes a human being from another is her unique manifestation and actions of reconciliation.
Life somewhat obeys Le Chatelier principle, as what we known in chemistry. We cant afford to experience extremes for a prolonged period of time, and yet there will never be a period of calm. Stagnancy is a misnomer in the context of life, and would not really so too at death. For one's death creates a ripple in the lives of others, and this chain goes on and on.
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