Some say health is golden. others say health is wealth. health is youth. Health is everything. In all these circumstances, i just lost everything. To my utmost dismay, the gradual lower back pain and numbness along the back of my leg had turned out to be slipdisc, which back then was totally alien to me. Neither was i knowledgeable enough to discern a possible health issue back then, often attributing it to back pain, muscle fatigue, or other various reasons. Negligience was fatal. It was only 2 months ago when i startd to report sick. The MO made an appointment with an orthopaedic specialist which was a month away. Then i was scheduled for an MRI scan. Then the trauma. 2 layers of slipdisc at L4 L5 and L5 S1. Totally disparaging. I couldnt really recall any traumatic incident that led to my slipdisc, but i thought it was something that accumulated over a period of time. Over exertion? I would think so.
Not that its a terminal illness or some debilitating disease that will paralyse me or keep me bedridden, but serious enough to impact my life. Its non curable actually. Operations aren't 100% successful, and physiotherapies only ameliorate the situation and doesnt guarantee a complete removal of pain. Movements now are somewhat uncomfortable at certain angles. Prolong standing hurts. even certain postures are unpalatable. Thats the fact of my life now. I have often blamed this on NS and its rigorous activites that inadvertently took its toll on me. Sometimes, being too garang, often pushing urself to ur limits, enduring, telling yourself that our minds are stronger than our bodies, aint panacea to survive in tough trainings. Mental endurance must not compromise delicate body conditions. There is a limit that the body can take. And the limit was unknown to me at that period of time. That was exactly the cause of this mishap. As much as i am saddened by my sudden immobility due to my slipdisc, i realised that i couldnt change much of this fact. The only thing now that i could change was being more positive, taking more care of my lower back. Yea it has been a non ideal sacrifice, but i should not sacrifice any more. That's what i think should be the way i must move on.
